Random thoughts for my journal. Another tough night without MO. It has only been 4 days since PIV. I guess even PIV does not help with the urges. They come back. Talking with the woman I am now dating about sex does not help either. I think this adds stress to my reboot. I can only hope it helps being active with a woman and not MO-ing rewires me in the right direction. I should also add I am back taking my Cialis 5mg daily. I am not that confident without it while we are dating. If dating turns into a relationship then we will talk and test where I am. I think if I abstain I may be successful. Only time will tell. The Cialis is working very well as compared to before porn. Overall I still feel confident and good about myself.
Labido, thanks for the words of encouragement.. To be honest, my MO counter is different then my PIV counter. PIV was this pass Saturday and I did not reset my MO counter.. I have no plans to add a PIV counter. LOL. I am not even sure how to handle this. Maybe I should add an O counter.
Why would you reset your MO counter for PIV? I thought you always had a hard time getting past 6 or 7 days for MO, without regard to PIV. No need for a PIV counter or, I assume, an O counter. I certainly had PIV on Monday and haven't reset counters, there was no M or P involved.
Since I started abstaining I have always and still do have a hard time not O-ing after 4 days, no matter how. It is not a matter if I need to MO. I just need to O. Day 4 is where it starts and by day 6 I have to O. I am going on 4 days tonight since PIV. Today was torture. All day at work I just felt the need to O. If I would have been home I would have MO. After work I needed to shop at my wholesale club and the entire 30 minute ride I had an 80% hard erection. I felt like at any moment I would let go in my shorts. I was not touching myself either. Once I arrived and started walking around the feelings subsided. Now I feel calm like I had O'd but I didn't. Now I just have to get through the night. Laying in bed is the next challenge. Tomorrow night, the woman I am dating is coming and sex may be dessert.
Not trying to start a dating topic here, but this is my journal. My new dating partner has not moved on from her marriage or divorve, and has ended things between us. It is what it is. The promise of sex helped get me through not MO-ing yesterday. Now today I have little incentive and I am a bit horny. The whole experience only helped me a little learning to resist my urges. The good news is it did not bring me down. I still.have high self confidence.to the point I contacted the other women I.was in contact with on the dating site. I have a date tomorrow.night with one. And.a maybe next week.with another. It is alll good and I thank this site and all support I continue to receive from the members here.
Hey man, you've gone 7 days since MO. Now it's on to 8. The more time you keep on this path the better you will position yourself with the women. You will be more confident and it will show. I know it. I'm going to write something about this in my journal in a few minutes, check it out. Keep the faith brother.
Libido, I appreciate the support even thou I had to reset my MO counter. Arrived home after thinking about it the whole ride home. I even ran an errand hoping the urge would go away. It just got worse once I was home alone. Having a woman talk about sex up until Tuesday makes it more of challenge. I feel no remorse. The challenge continues.
There's absolutely no reason for remorse. Having your date a few days ago, then expectations going forward, now this turn of events. Tomorrow is another day.
So I have no idea how this will effect my reboot if I am really rebooting now. Went on another first date that ended in sex. Can I really reboot with PIV vs. abstaining from O? I do know I get more aroused then I have felt in years. Even thou I MO'd yesterday I was able to perform twice tonight. I am still taking the Cialis daily but it does not make me this aroused. What a strange journal entry.
Well, all I can say is that I've noticed a meaningful uptick in how hard I get during PIV (still medically assisted), the intensity of my Os and my ability to cum more than once with a woman since starting on this journey. Perhaps I'd be farther along if I didn't have any orgasms whatsoever, but I'm delighted with the direction so far. I suspect that each one of us is different. Sounds like we are both on similar paths. Congrats Zen.
The only reason I have even persued women is because my confidents is at an all time. I used to feel so depressed about having to take Cialis I would not persue women or even sex. Back then I had PMO. I am going to try harder now not MO. The journey continues. Libido thanks for the words of encouragement.
Had a weekend of PIV. I am still taking my Cialis 5mg daily. Some people think you take an ED pill you are 100% hard and can that way whenever you want. Not true. Before I stopped PMO it was not this hard and did not return so easily. I am making progress even if it may be slow with PIV. Now with my schedule and hers there will be a break, about 1-2 weeks. I am curious to see how I feel abstaining again.
So I have hit the 60 day no porn milestone. On the other hand I never made it to the 30 day no MO milestone. The best I could do was 6 days. The urge was too much. However, I have made improvements. I found out that after enough abstinence I could achieve an acceptable erection. Plus, I can get extremely horny. This led to increased confidence and positive self esteem which led me to start dating. I have had great first dates feeling good about myself. Now I have met someone and sex is so much better. I am still taking 5mg Cialis daily but I am getting non-contact erections. The time between sex I can resist the urge to MO which has been no more then 4 days. Something I could not due before. I know this is a different path to reboot but I am making progress. I hope to eventually test where I am without taking the Cialis.
Have been PIV regularly for the last three weeks with the woman I have dating. Last night I had the urge to MO and it continues today. My experience here helps me to resist.
I would be happy to have your 22 days M free. You're doing great. Keep the fire burning, man. When the urge gets too strong, let's get out of the house! Edit = changed a "to" to a "too".
Bright_eyes your adivce may be needed after tonight. It has been almost 5 days now since my last O by PIV. My girl is coming over but the red light has been turned on. Yup that time of the month. If she is not in the mood for other activities then I will have to wait until Friday for the green light. Previously 6 days was my record but now I have a very long record of no MO to continue. Those counters can motivate sometimes.
A tankless hot water heater with endless hot water and that time of the month make for a nice shower for two. This will ensure I don't MO.
