Thanks for stopping by man. I've been off this forum since last year. My last day at work was 14 Dec, just got back in after a very lazy holiday. Apart from our baby, it was quite relaxing indeed. I've been off Facebook, or at least haven't had time to really be on it, I took the time to just watch series. After much cajoling from friends and colleagues I finally got to watch Game of Thrones, watched it from the first episode and was blown away. There were scenes of nudity and potential triggers, but the story was so captivating that I didn't even consider using porn. Whether it's healthy to binge-watch series is open to debate, especially as it places me right in front of a screen for extended periods. But I haven't relapsed and funnily enough only saw the counter now, so almost 30 days I suppose. Being back at work feels quite good, I'm actually eager to begin working and developing my career. Being with a crying baby every day was a bit heavy, especially as we were at my parents' house. It was great to have their support during this time, but I'm super happy to be back in my own space. It looks like we've just moved in, with piles of stuff everywhere, but feels so much more spacious with just me and my wife and the baby, and not having to answer to a bunch of other people, one is enough! (wife, I suppose two with a crying baby.. ) Another reason I'm glad to be back at my place is that we don't have wi-fi, so I'm forced to read, which is so much more rewarding. After GoT, I was so used to being at my laptop, I was beginning to just surf videos and watch whatever I could find, started some other series, but they weren't as good and I couldn't get into them especially with only a few days left of my holiday. I must admit, I was at risk of relapsing during that time. But I must say, I have been quite repulsed y the thought of porn, although I did go into some questionable videos on YouTube. I'm grateful for work and a place to find some measure of purpose. Even the people who I had problems with towards the end of last year aren't as horrible as I had painted them in my mind, if I can admit it to myself. I must be honest and realise that my negative feelings to people (in general) was fueled by my most recent relapse and feelings of hopelessness. 2017 was an improvement from 2016, but there were still too many relapses into porn for my liking. I mean, I still remember my last few times acting out on PMO and it was quite a desperate time for me, emotionally. While it did not match some of the binges I indulged in over the past two years, not by a long shot, the recent episodes were more jarring to me in that I acted out while my while slept nearby with my baby, the shame there is enormous.I know she was worried that I might have been acting out while I was watching series, which adds more to the shame. But, thankfully I didn't act out.