Sitting at work. It's 8am and it has been 9 hours since I finished a session of PMO, the last of 5 yesterday. It's 1 December, World Aids Day and I am grateful that those sessions didn't escalate to prostitutes, and with that would go alcohol and drugs. I am just shy of 11 months clean off booze and drugs, and just 11 months from sleeping with a prostitute; female. I viewed a lot of shemale porn over 17 years (I'm 33 now) and slept with a lot too, along with a lot of female porn and prostitutes. In the beginning it was mostly females but towards the end it was almost exclusively tranny porn and a lot of drugs; alcohol, marijuana, cocaine, cat, LSD and of course cigarettes. Substances have been relatively easy to let go of, but the porn and lust is a huge struggle. I recognise that some of the things I watch of TV are huge triggers, but I've been allowing myself to watch one show in particular which has an age restriction of 16, for violence, language and some scenes of nudity. After wanking 3 times yesterday I had a long much-needed nap, then woke up and ate. Then I went to bed, but had another PMO session. I still have some shame and guilt. But I realise what I need to do; stop watching certain shows and to allow myself to take powerful naps, even though I'll wake up early. I must expose myself only to positive books, movies and music and not be "double-minded".