Day 9...feeling good. I've been chatting/texting with D (the guy who was the impetus for starting my journey) almost every day since I saw him last. Yesterday, he mentioned that he MO'd thinking about me and how much I turned him on. Knowing someone feels that way about me feels really, really good. Today, after a nap, I found myself fantasizing about being with him (based on when we were together before) and got a raging hard on without even touching myself. I was very tempted to MO but let the moment pass and didn't. I'm committed to my next O being shared with another man (...and I expect it will be with him). The fact that I was able to get fully erect thinking about a real life experience (and with no touching) rather than a porn fantasy seems like progress to me. I'm thinking this is gonna work! Well, off to the gym!