Heading into my second night without PMO or MO. To be honest I am anxious how this is going to go as quite a few years back I withheld from fapping for due to feeling guilty about fantasising and the result was some very disturbing sexual dreams. I have always been pro fapping after made to feel guilty in my Catholic upbringing, so it feels wierd to be listening to what the Catholic priests were saying and abstaining from it! My reason for taking this challenge is to try and break the nasty PMO habit that I have had most of my life. P has varied from mundane catalog clippings to some wierd shit I'm not proud of viewing. I have abstained from hardcore for some time now, but for the purposes of this challenge I will be going the whole way and regarding P as any kind of visual stimulus. I am totally intrigued by what a reboot might do for me. I probably need a kick up the ass as well as a reboot. There is a good chance I have what it takes. I'm an alcoholic and I've been sober for 18 months now after 27 years of severe addiction so I'm hoping I can take what I learned from that addiction and apply it to this addiction. Alcohol and PMO were responsible for my fiancé leaving me and breaking off our marriage. I want to be able to enter another relationship under much better circumstances without these self-defeating addictions. I felt the urge to MO last night. Today I feel a little tense and normally a PMO session would bring some relief but I'm fighting it. I have to let go though and not fight it as otherwise I will fail early. The secret I think is acceptance and letting go, not fighting against it.