Your lowest point? (ROCK-BOTTOM) [TRIGGER WARNING]

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by Stopper, May 17, 2012.

  1. Nevergaveup

    Nevergaveup New Member

    I'm sure that the amount of days I wasted on porn equals a couple years by now. What was different with yesterday was that it was one long session that lasted the whole day, I never did that before. I kept on forcing myself to seek out novelty until I was able to get it up. At my worse, before, it was multiple sessions that could last between 2-4hours. I truly hope that I don't do ever again it was horrible. This morning I watched 5 minutes before telling myself that this really need to stop and close that shit. I want the memories of what happen yesterday to keep traumatizing me off porn.
     
  2. Snake88

    Snake88 Member

    I'm glad sharing my lowest point is able to be helpful. It also feels pretty shitty to be 'that guy' though...the thank god I'm not that guy, guy.
    Ah well, thing's can always get worse I guess
     
  3. moonrunner67

    moonrunner67 New Member

    I got drunk and cried for 6 straight hours due to months of built up guilt. I was raised to think of porn as a sin, so the amount i was looking at at the time meant i was going straight to the deepest pit of hell.
     
  4. Panonymos

    Panonymos Humility is a virtue

    Why do you feel bad Snake? You just sucked a she-cock. It is not a big deal.
    You did not do any harm to anyone. We should not be afraid of cock, we all have one.
    Take it easy on yourself.
     
  5. Panonymos

    Panonymos Humility is a virtue

    Maybe this will help: Rape has nothing erotic. Rape is not about sexual desire or arousal. Rape is all about power and humiliation. This is why straight men are able to rape other men. This is also why submissive straight men can "enjoy" being anally violated by a mistress or cuckoldress. It is the ultimate humiliation. If you can realize this in your mind, then rape will not seem like an interesting idea anymore.

    Many women look for rape porn, or forceful porn. But again, this is just fantasy, they do not want this in real life.
    The fantasy that you have in your mind of rape has nothing to do with the reality of rape. Keep it real!
     
  6. Snake88

    Snake88 Member

    I don't really know why Panonymos. Just a combination of shame, guilt, disgust . Feel like my mouth, hands etc are 'dirty'. It also annoys me that I can still become aroused thinking of this stuff.
     
  7. Panonymos

    Panonymos Humility is a virtue

    The less we give a fuck, the happier we are Snake!
     
  8. Snake88

    Snake88 Member

    I think you're right. How can I adopt this attitude!
     
  9. Panonymos

    Panonymos Humility is a virtue

    I have also sucked a she-cock once. So what?
    Accept yourself and put all this behind you.
    We are lucky to have those experiences.

    Because of all my nasty experiences, I am a better and understanding lover now. I know how it is for a woman to suck my cock. I know how it is for a woman to get fucked cause I have been fucked.
    I am not proud of my past, but it is an advantage to have all these experiences and knowledge.
     
  10. Snake88

    Snake88 Member

    Thanks man. I'll practice putting it behind me. We're both on the 12 day mark! Good luck. Stay in touch
     
  11. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

    What exactly is a 'she-cock'?

    Is it a penis that has long soft hair sprouting out of it with lipstick on the shaft and a tiny handbag hanging off the tip?

    I had thought a cock was a cock!
     
  12. Snake88

    Snake88 Member

    I guess it's easier to type than 'transsexual woman's penis'
     
  13. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    This is pratically me apart from the teen porn. I am 23. This dude is only 17, still young!!!
     
  14. WIP2014

    WIP2014 New Member

    How does discussing and reliving our lowest points dealing with PI help ANY of us?? If anything it makes you want to revisit the shit. Unless you have fully rebooted and are no longer struggling with PI, this thread serves no purpose and slows recovery.
     
  15. Psalm Reborn

    Psalm Reborn New Member

    This thread is garbage. It's full of triggers. I considered relapsing for a few minutes after reading painmymiddlename's post. I won't check it out anymore.
     
  16. WIP2014

    WIP2014 New Member

    Exactly. Ive read tons of people in this thread say that "the thought of ____ makes me want to look at it now". well duhh.

    One of the main goals of rebooting is to look ahead and not look in the past. This thread is like reading erotic literature and needs to be closed.
     
  17. WIP2014

    WIP2014 New Member

    Im starting to question if some people in here want to socialize and make excuses for their continuous relapses or if they really want to fix themselves.
     
  18. Psalm Reborn

    Psalm Reborn New Member

    Yea. It's plain stupid. I mean, you all are supposed to clear your head of porn and what do yall do? Come here and give details about what you watch. I mean, we can be as strong as we want but when I read the other post I was really wondering how I was going to be tough enough to resist.
     
  19. SwimAddict

    SwimAddict New Member

    Any time I get close to giving in, remembering everything I've seen here helps me fight it. It helps me remember who I was, and reminds me never to be that way again. It shows me who I could become, and reminds me never to become that way.

    If you use this as an excuse to PMO, get off this thread NOW. Don't ruin it for the rest of us that use it as motivation.
     
  20. WIP2014

    WIP2014 New Member

    That is what your journal is for. If you have recovered then good for you. But for the people that haven't and are still working thru this shit and use this board as a safe haven, hearing people talk about sucking tranny dick and creampieing prostitutes helps no one. If the purpose of rebooting is to move on with your life, then dwelling on the past is counterproductive. But whatever, Im off the thread, do what y'all want.
     

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