Your lowest point? (ROCK-BOTTOM) [TRIGGER WARNING]

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by Stopper, May 17, 2012.

  1. Panonymos

    Panonymos Humility is a virtue

    I can totally relate. Porn, beer and weed. I would leave the house to get more weed from the coffeeshop. Smoke and fap until I dropped. Wake up and go again. Suicidal thoughts, etc. What a fuckin waste.
     
  2. anewbeginning1

    anewbeginning1 Starting anew!

    Hey guys, is it possible for someone to help me out?

    Im a 17 year old guy and I know i am straight because I still remember my first crush when i was 4 it was alllwaayyysss girl, i always look for tips on getting girls, i dont like guys from that perspective. I always watched straight porn, until the shemale porn escalation occurred, i dont know why but i became interested in semen. i know its weird :( then i started watching gloryhole videos that is ALLLLL i have been watching for the past 4 months. i have downloaded so much on my comp (rid of it now). idk why but i find semen interesting. i still like girls and get that feeling of butterflies around them at school, i dont have any romantic or emotional feelings for guys whatsoever.

    please reply
     
  3. Panonymos

    Panonymos Humility is a virtue

    You are not gay. Many men like cumshots and stuff. You are just confused.
    You say you like semen. On your computer screen, right? You would not want a man to cum on your face in real life.
    You need to differenciate fantasy from reality. Porn is all fantasy.
    Start rebooting and your mind will relax.
     
  4. anewbeginning1

    anewbeginning1 Starting anew!

    Thank you for replying man!! :D Yes ofc on the computer screen only, i feel disgusted by my own thing, i dont know why it just looks cool when the girl swallows it. i still love girls tho, but freaked out cuz i thought i was gay. feel much better, stopped porn for good now because it has esclated to this point.
     
  5. dadondon

    dadondon New Member

    Thoughts popping into my head of raping someone, it fucks with you man, makes you feel like a disgusting human being, its the reason I'm here, cause I want those thoughts to go away.
     
  6. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

    I think you need to seek psychiatric help

    This board is beyond helping those who are considering rape
     
  7. anewbeginning1

    anewbeginning1 Starting anew!

    Bro tell me about it, it fuckin sucks, i would never consider doing those things, but these intrusive thoughts are super hard to resist. Trying to break free. Stay strong bro, we are all good to our core.
     
  8. anewbeginning1

    anewbeginning1 Starting anew!

    How has your recovery been metal? Any tips or advice for my weird fetish :(
     
  9. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

    Simply abstain from the tranny and gay porn long enough for your brain to revert back to type.

    I'd say in at least 3 months you will no longer be attracted to those weird fetishes.
     
  10. dadondon

    dadondon New Member

    I said thoughts, I never said considering, you should read carefully before you make assumptions.
     
  11. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

    Ok so you are thinking about rape. Does that sound better?

    Is there any point getting into semantics?

    This is something which is above this board.
     
  12. anewbeginning1

    anewbeginning1 Starting anew!

    Thank you for your reply metal :)

    The thign is i dont watch tranny or gay porn, i watch gloryhole porn with girls in it that 'swallow'. ive never ever experimented or had any feelings for men whatsoever. always loved girls, watched solo girl porn before. recently ever since i gotten into the gloryhole and bukkake shit, i have thought about semen and cumshots and stuff, and feel like i might become gay watching it. i dont kno wwhy im questioning my sexuality, is it the dopamine stuff that is making even extreme porn 'vanilla'. this weird fascination of semen is weird. i normally look at the girl in porn, not the guy, and get a boner from looking at her.
     
  13. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

    This isnt the thread to discuss your recovery.
     
  14. Snake88

    Snake88 Member

    My lowest point:
    Losing my virginity to a tranny was bad. I can never get that back.
    But my lowest point was ending up in a 69 position with a tranny in a hotel room and feeling disgusted with myself. This happened three years ago and I still can't get over it
     
  15. Nevergaveup

    Nevergaveup New Member

    Yesterday I watched porn for 12-16 hours because I had a limp Dick and he took me all this time to finish. Now this morning I wake up feeling crap. My PIED is on a another level. My back and neck injuries are killing me like crazy. To make it worse all I can think about right now is to the same thing again. :(
     
  16. Psalm Reborn

    Psalm Reborn New Member

    Dang.. I thought 3-4 hours was already a really long time, but 12 hours?? Are you serious? Thats a whole day man.
     
  17. bossman

    bossman Member

    I thought that's what this entire board is for. Not every reply has to be directly in-line with the thread topic, and anyway, his post regarding HOCD stuff sounds pretty rock-bottomy to me.
     
  18. toxicviper23

    toxicviper23 Guest


    I will never bitch about my problems again...


    Thank you.
     
  19. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

    I've done this shit so many times.
    I swear to fucking Christ, so many girls fucking bitch about being hit on because they're acting "friendly".
    Girls complain about guys hitting on them so frequently that it has made me mistake flirting for a girl being nice and not interested in me so many times.
     
  20. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

     

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