Your lowest point? (ROCK-BOTTOM) [TRIGGER WARNING]

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by Stopper, May 17, 2012.

  1. CidGuerreiro

    CidGuerreiro Well-Known Member

    Abstaining helps a lot since you'll feel like porn is behind you and that there's a new life ahead of you (which is true). But at the end of the day you'll have to accept your mistakes and leave shame behind on your own.
     
  2. Paddy

    Paddy New Member

    I think my lowest point was last friday. I have been trying to reboot since early may. Since then I have relapsed quite a few times and the last two months have been hell. However, during these months I have never relapsed to some of my worst fetishes that I developed during my porn addiction - until last friday. I honestly thought that I was over these fetishes, apparently I wasn't. The fact that they have managed to get inside me again makes me question whether they will always be there. Just as Howardhughes say. I want to be able to say that this was just a phase. This relapse makes me question whether I will ever reach that point. I feel like I will always have to worry about these things because I came back to them after so long (although only once). The shame and guilt is killing me.
     
  3. Zellomugi

    Zellomugi Guest

    This thread is intense
     
  4. kevin22

    kevin22 New Member

    My lowest point of my PMO addiction was me masturbating to anime porn hentai smh!!!!!! :-[ :'(
     
  5. CidGuerreiro

    CidGuerreiro Well-Known Member

    That kind of porn is actually highly consumed, not only in Japan but worldwide.
     
  6. ro_man

    ro_man Member

    I'd have to say my lowest point was last Saturday. Not because I wanked over anything extreme, but because after deleting every last bit of porn on my hard drive (except for naked pics of my ex), I ended up still blowing my load to pictures of her with my jizz splattered on her ass from 4 years ago. Put this in context, I've been broken up with a girl 2 years and am still wanking over nude pics of her. This shows a) the desperation I will go to to get my "fix" and b) that im clearly not even over her fully yet. Gladly I've since deleted the pics, but it was definetely my lowest point
     
  7. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

    I've been unable to delete naked or pornographic pics of my ex's.
    I don't view them, but I can't delete them. =/
    Like physically my body won't do it.
     
  8. brummie82

    brummie82 New Member

    I've had a few pretty LOW points. Warning - this contains triggers. For some time now I've been into humiliation & foot fetish - this is something that the internet caters extremely well for judging by the seemingly limitless content for these specific fetishes. I've done some pretty stupid things including dabbling in blackmail & financial domination. I paid a glamour model / Domme £30 for her toenail clippings and then took a photo with them in my mouth because she asked for it. Pretty gross, right? Yep - not exactly my proudest moment. I've wasted loads of money on my addictions.

    One of the lowest ongoing issues is continuing with the destructive behaviour despite knowing the adverse consequences.
     
  9. calmwinter

    calmwinter Guest

    I can't relate to any of it. Damn do I even belong here????
     
  10. CidGuerreiro

    CidGuerreiro Well-Known Member

    I too haven't done anything remotely close to the stuff described in here.

    I suppose my lowest point was the unbearable state of depression that I had reached before I started rebooting. Obviously I cannot blame it all on porn, but having an addicion wasn't exactly helping me.
     
  11. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

    I think ED is the worst rock bottom for all of us here who have it.
    Yeah, we've all done fucked up stuff, but ED, REALLY??? AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE???

    Take away my friends, take away my girlfriends, take away my job, take away my house, but DON'T TAKE AWAY MY DICK!
     
  12. ro_man

    ro_man Member

    I felt that way for a while man. In fact, I wouldn't have deleted them had I not blown my load whilst looking at them. but for me, still having them on my computer was a sign that I hadn't moved on.
     
  13. calmwinter

    calmwinter Guest

    That's sort of the situation I'm in. Porn hasn't exactly screwed me over, but I could do without it
     
  14. DillonS

    DillonS New Member

    Yea ive had that moment its crazy you feel like you dont know who you are anymore and you feel so alone. Self confidence is low and you dont feel like doing anything that is what led me to this site i hate porn and never ever want to go back !
     
  15. Ryan94

    Ryan94 Began my life again on 21/03/2014 - Nowruz

    bump

    remember reading some great stuff on here - let's keep this thread going! can't the mods sticky this?
     
  16. Andy1

    Andy1 Guest

    In no particular order

    >Getting desperate. Seeing a hooker and attempting to penetrate with a totally flaccid penis.
    >Isolating myself and fapping for hours until my willy hurt.
    >Fapping to she male, cuckold, granny and pregnant porn.
    >Having an attractive girl naked in my bed and not able to perform a basic human function.
    >having a girl ask me out and show blatant interest in me yet saying no due to PIED.
    >being surrounded by men who have regular sex and talk about it and having to lie to keep up appearances.
    >Relapsing so many times
     
  17. CidGuerreiro

    CidGuerreiro Well-Known Member

    Did you at least had yourself tested for HIV and every other possible STD after your last experience?
     
  18. kevin22

    kevin22 New Member

    My lowest point was jacking off to scat porn and beastiality‎ porn
     
  19. bgguy

    bgguy Member

    See some bad stuff: fisting, rape-simulation
    My parents and my brother saw some of my stored photos. It was really embarasing.
    Fap until my hand hurt as hell
    Fapping on my former work (I wasn't caught, but anyway...)
    In my first sex, I just couldn't top, struggling with the condom and flaccid penis

    That's the worst points in my life related to porn
     
  20. UsernameTaken

    UsernameTaken New Member

    yeah i had syphilis. got treated for it and now im ok
     

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