I have been having trouble getting onto this site these last few days. Its been interesting as I have come to rely on the posts to keep me focused. Had a little panic about it yesterday. Thankfully I have had enough days of support and posting to keep me from going backwards. Happy to say that I am still focused on my recovery with no P,M, or O. Hoping YBR gets up and running properly as this site is a crucial part for me of beating the addiction. Wanted to also mention that having deleted all my porn and shortcuts from the computer has given me as sense of relief. Always worried and stressed that if someone had use of my computer or if it needed to go into the shop, my secret life would be discovered. Even worried that if I should die, that my legacy was that he was a dirty old man with a computer full of porn. Nice not having to worry about that now Keep on posting all!
tonym, I've had some issues trying to connect with the website today as well... Glad to hear that you've got the "porn off the PC" Keep posting!
thanks NGB. Feels good knowing that I can use the computer without fear of some pic or link popping up in outgoing emails. No longer having the fear of being discovered is huge!
The site's definitely having some issues. I'm glad to hear all's going well with you, tonym. Have a great weekend.
I too got a little panicky when this site would not come up. I honestly feel that writing here reduces the urge to think about sex, PMO, MO. Lol, it's so damn logical it helps me to turn off "missile lock" (which is what I call the mindset I would get into when I had to jerk off to porn). Anyhow, another good board is at http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?board=6.0 and I've signed up with the same username. I think the "more boards the better" so you might want to try posting over there if things go offline here. Stay strong tonym. I am feeling quite weak on MO right now. I am pretty horny and no opps for womanly satisfaction - at least not unless I go out and get some, but frankly that's not my style to just use someone for sex. With that said, if I get anymore MO urges, I might eat my words. Have a good holiday weekend (amusing your in US).
I am with you with the panic when the site was down. Its a great place to be when the urge hits you. Did not realize how quickly I became dependent on it until it went down. Thanks for that new link buddy. Will sign up for that as well under the same name. I had a tough afternoon myself. Strong urges to M, not for P thankfully. All stress related. Took the advice of a poster and iced my hangers. It will get your attention Keep up the good work and will try to do the same. Happy fourth!
