Xstar's Journal

Glad to have you back Xstar
I now believe after 90 days it's important to continue to post here.

 

My attendance here has been sporadic of late X. At first, I reacted by assuming all had been cured, but that is wishful thinking, and a handy tool for my addict-brain to get its habit back.

You and I are close on the "days-since" scale. I hope we can both keep those numbers growing.

Glad to have you back.

 

keep posting star your insights are invaluable

 

oh yeah. the addicted brain loves to tell us that.

 

x-star don't get com placement, don't think you don't need this place as much as it needs you. its a slippery path if thats the case. believe me, it has just happened to me. out of nowhere. serious. but manageable.there have been plusses too.

don't start letting your head tell you that you have it licked. you don't. now turn that light back on and show us the way.

the best

 

I support what Col says. This forum is our accountability and safe haven when under pressure. The demon sneaks up on you when you are not watching. Good to see you back

 

Thanks for all the great posts.

Frankly, I don't think this thing is ever beat. Coming here helps keep me focused--yet I haven't done it daily. It's a habit issue and I've broken the habit of checking in regularly. I'll change that.

Part of my problem right now is that I'm soooo far behind on various journals that it seems overwhelming to get caught up. So my apologies if I sometimes make posts and am not entirely caught up on the various paths folks are on. I need to get past the barrier to entry I've set for myself that I need to read so much to get caught up...that makes not coming here easier than coming here.

 

Xstar: I see right here, you have set a barrier to success against yourself. There is NO reason whatsoever that you have to read all the posts of a journal. This is self-imposed. Jump to the newest and continue on there. If you spend hours and hours getting caught up on different journals, THAT is a problem.

 

hello xstar

where are you? hope all is good, let us know when you get the chance

 

You wrote in my journal:

Now you are at 172 days. You have now had a longer streak of no PMO than me. You must have found your way to avoid relapse.
I am happy for you.

 

176 days, great achievement . Hope all is good. I second Cao: no need to read everything. Just stay in touich and let us know how you fare

 

Coming up on half a year . . .

 

are you OK Xstar? give us a sign