WRAT's Journal

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by WRAT, Dec 20, 2013.

  1. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    As weird as it may sound, you probably were never very addicted to cigarettes. One can't predict what one will get addicted to, but once you're addicted it's for life...those wires will be inside of your brain for the rest of your life -- they're harmless if you control your actions, however they're absolutely deadly if you don't.
     
  2. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Day by day you eat the elephant.
     
  3. Rex

    Rex PMO free is the only way it's going to be for me.

    40New30,

    I would say that's a good assessment. After I gave up cigarettes I would smell one and all the great feelings of smoking would come back but I said "no, I don't want to smoke another cigarette" and I didn't buy a pack or bum a cigarette. Giving up cigarettes for me was fairly easy. PMO was my albatross around my neck, cigarettes were nothing more than a minor annoyance by comparison.

    Rex

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  4. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Cigarettes and everything else that is addictive which I've tried were a cakewalk to quit in comparison to porn.

    WRAT, what's cracking?
     
  5. WRAT

    WRAT Active Member

    I'm an ex cigarette smoker myself and I still enjoy a cigar every six months or so. Nothing easy about giving up cigarettes.

    I'm so happy to have some time off PMO. Funny, I got addicted because it felt good yet I'm amazed how much better I feel when I don't do it.
     
  6. Rex

    Rex PMO free is the only way it's going to be for me.

    Wrat,

    Very insightful words! A fall to PMO gives us the impression of a quick high which never lasts, and we spend our time doing it over and over again trying to reach that high which never lasts. It's when we are free from PMO, that we have real joy and happiness.

    Keep up the fight! You're doing great!

    Rex


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  7. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Not sure why quitting cigarettes was so easy for me in comparison to quitting porn...however I did build an amazingly large super highway of neural networks towards porn! That could be why. ;)
     
  8. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Welcome back, WRAT. You're doing great. :)
     
  9. WRAT

    WRAT Active Member

    Thanks Guys. I'm feeling great. Starting to experience that deep sleep I experienced in the past when I'm off PMO.
     
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  10. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    I'm so glad you're back, old soldier. :)
     
  11. WRAT

    WRAT Active Member

    Well, as usual, the addict kicks it up a few notches after 30 days. Last night I had insomnia and an erection telling me a quick M would allow me to sleep. Thankfully, I didn't give in but I sure am tired today. Interesting that my fantasies were not ladies in porn but ones I dated over 30 years ago. Glad it was towards real people but it was a bit creepy.

    I hope all of my brothers on this journey with me are doing well.
     
  12. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Well done.
     
  13. WRAT

    WRAT Active Member

    So happy I passed 30 days again. My huge hurdles are one week, two weeks and 30 days. The addict keeps fighting me though. Yesterday, I was busy most of the day yet still thinking about sex most of the day.

    I'm appreciating the small victories and the little ways I feel better. When I did my 8 month reboot, I think I was expecting my life to be perfect but now I know that will never happen. My life is good and I need to continue to try and make it better.
     
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  14. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Yeah, man, we'll always have ups and downs, disappointments, set-backs, but they'll be much, much easier to manage when we're clean and sober. No doubt.

    Keep on truckin'. :cool:
     
  15. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    8 months clean is just the beginning, we have to create a better life or addiction will just look too damn good and we'll go back to square one.
    Glad you're cruising, boss.
     
  16. WRAT

    WRAT Active Member

    I had an MO relapse Friday so feeling like crap. I'm thankful I stayed away from the porn but MO is an addiction I need to lose.
     
  17. Guy_Stewart

    Guy_Stewart Well-Known Member

    WRAT, my old friend, we've walked the path before; we're here again -- and I'll be proud to walk with you again, because WE DIDN'T GIVE UP!

    Keep going, man! Keep going! (And about the MO addiction...I SO GET THAT...but you're moving forward!)
     
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  18. WRAT

    WRAT Active Member

    Guy, thanks for your note and I am proud to walk with you again. Thanks for reminding me that once every 30 to 40 days is better than once every day. Still working towards kicking this for good.

    The addiction is really working me now. The last two nights I haven't slept well and that wicked voice keeps telling me a quick PMO will put me back to sleep. Fortunately, I haven't listened.
     
  19. NCBob

    NCBob The 11th commandment: Thou shalt not peek:-)

    Hey WRAT, good to have you back in the mix:) Keep up the great work - each clean day adds up!!!
     
  20. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Heeeeeeaps, better. Well done.
     

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