it's really easy to think we're alone in our struggles - and the truth is, we're not We are in this together...
Thank-you my brothers for continuing to check on me. I've been on a major binge lately. Feeling really low right now and your kind words help me a great deal. I'm in a men's bible study group and we are studying the 7 Deadly Sins. This is the last week and the subject is lust. There is a great deal of material in our workbook about pornography addiction; much of what I've seen on this forum. I guess time will tell if I can dig out of this once again. Thank you again for not giving up on me.
Hi WRAT , been a couple of months sunce we wrote. I got cocky and decided i didnt need this support and had ir under control, and now here i am. Yoube been in this forum for 3+ years. I now you are married like me. And keep falling down in binges like me. My binges seem to be getting worse and its gerting me down, confusing me and i am fr once in my life facing a situation which now i feel hopeless, totally defeated to the point i am considering saying to heck with it, accept i am broken and live with it and its impending consecuences. Can i ask you a sincere question, after 3 years of posting and falling , has this become any easier on you? Has this path to recovery working? Thank you. I ask only because this are the very questions i am making myself although i have only really started rebooting (no o or m and PMO) since Jan but do not see a way out . I feel trapped in a deathmarch.
Who knew that the Bible was so full of triggers? Wait. I seem to remember now, there was some pretty racy stuff in there that they wouldn't talk about in Sunday School. Welcome back WRAT. There's always a chair for you here.
Nobody understands better than we do. It's ok, you cannot erase the past but only focus on what's right in front of you. Welcome back.
Great to hear from you, WRAT! You were missed. Keep posting, no matter how your battle is going. One day at a time.
Since it's impossible for God to give up on us, I suspect it's impossible for us to give up on you. Good to have you back, WRAT
Oh man! It's so good to have you back Wrat! We missed you brother. I'm sure you saw that a bunch of us have been checking in on your journal and posting when you were away. You've had a great impact on the community here. So yeah, there's no question of us giving up on you. This is such a tough thing we're dealing with - so powerful. I know it's sucked us all under at times. I'm sure we can all relate to going on the extended binge. I know I can. And wanting to stay away from here too. I really don't think there's much to dig out of. Just get back on the horse, and you'll feel the momentum kick in soon.
Thanks guys. I wish you could know how much your kind words mean to me. William, I've asked myself this question many times. I started out thinking after 90 days clean all of my problems would be gone forever and life would be perfect. That's not going to happen. In three years I've gone from almost daily PMO to once or twice a month. My goal is to be clean forever but I am making progress. My entire state of being is better when I'm clean. My entire outlook on life is better. So yes, this path to recovery is working; it's just taking longer than I planned. Best of luck.
Hey WRAT, thank you for your honest response. I am learning so much more than just porn addiction in this journey. I am sooo happy to hear your reply, and was a bit concerned that my questions where not formulated in a positive or right time...i was panicking and came from the heart. I read your thread for over an hour last week during my post relapse hour of crisis...(you kbow the days after a relapse one spends much time focusing reading, investigating, etc) and my ultimate opinion is that you are fundamentally a good a decent guy, you are brave and deserve nothing but joy. Needless to say you sir have inspired me. Thanks for reply again...its the answer i was hoping for.
Thanks guys. William, part of my growth in this journey is trying to understand I don't deserve everything I want but I also don't deserve to be miserable.
