Way to keep it clean after a minor blip, WRAT...that's huge! Keep it going, you're likely to get a craving soon, just push past it.
You went past 90 days WRAT? Fantastic.... I'm back here again - I'm seeing this as an overall battle with addiction, and thinking about what pain within me make me want to 'act out' with porn and booze. I know it is not lust that makes me relapse, it is feeling lonely and sad. And I have good friends and family, so I'm reflecting on what is it that is causing me pain that I am trying to salve with these addictions. Hope you are doing Ok.
Gentlemen, thanks for stopping by. I'm going to follow Graybeard's stellar example and start posting daily. I often don't have much to say so I will apologize in advanced for any rambling. Funny, I had a little unexpected time alone over the weekend and my first thought was to surf some P. Thankfully, I didn't but it is interesting to see what can trigger the urge. Thanks for being with me on this journey.
Great to be on the journey with you as well! Yeah, no need to "apologize in advance" for rambling. I love reading your journal, and I know it'll help both of us to get back to that 90 days. We'll just keep taking it a day / post at at time!
Graybeard & 40New30, thanks for your comments. I rarely share quotes but the following hit me right between the eyes: You were never created to live depressed, defeated, guilty, condemned, ashamed or unworthy. You were created to be victorious. On to victory men!
I'd heard some years ago that when I'm alone with my addict, I'm alone with someone who is trying to kill me...
I was also thinking about this and just posted it on another guy's journal -- if we feel our lives with exactly what we do want every day then porn really becomes unthinkable. When I do things that deviate from my plans and goals I am very vulnerable to P.
Very true. An additional problem for me is when I have a pending task that I don't want to do. I appreciate you all stopping by.
I'm still not convinced that procrastination is the problem, rather that it is a symptom of something else. It would be a stronger argument, if I could pinpoint what; fear is my best guess, fear of failure, or fear of success. Both are enough to want things to just go away. Both are strong enough to get us to seek distraction. Distraction. That's turned into a whole 'nother problem for all of us, hasn't it?
Hey Wrat - just checking in brother. I miss you. Hope you're doing OK and looking forward to hearing from you.
Hey WRAT - I saw that graybeard had checked in on your journal, and thought I would as well. In fact, I'm going to keep bumping you to the top of the board each day until you start posting again. Just kidding I hope you are doing well!
