I've started two journals and am attempting to consolidate into one; below was my first post: This is my first post. I’m a 58 year old Christian, husband and father. I found YBOP July of 2012 and have been trying to reboot since; the longest I’ve gone is 34 days. I am at day 14 with no PMO and this is usually when I relapse. I’ve reviewed rebooting accounts on YBOP in the past but just visited this site a week ago and am encouraged. I’m not at all comfortable writing about this but I’m hoping this will help me get this monkey off my back forever. I’ve been masturbating since I was 10 and looking at anything close to porn since then. A 9 month period of unemployment in early 2009 and now working from home has allowed this to escalate. I’m home alone all day sitting in front of a computer. Funny in my lifetime I have heard that masturbation is everything from evil to the fountain of youth; it is neither. For me, porn & masturbation go hand in hand (no pun intended). It’s an addiction that is negatively affecting both my personal and professional life and I want to stop forever. I love the Lord, my family, my friends and you guys for sharing your journey. I’ve traveled this journey alone without much success and I look forward to traveling it with you guys. Below is my second post: I had a great day yesterday but did not sleep well last night. Very tired this morning and a bit agitated. This is about the time I relapse. We are celebrating Christmas with my extended family Saturday so we have family traveling tomorrow and the weather forecast isn't good. This evening will be very busy trying to get the house in order for four people staying with us and we will be hosting about 30 on Saturday. This is a lot of fun but also a lot of work to get ready. How long does this having to pee all the time last? I'm trying not to touch myself but I am peeing so much I feel like I'm touching myself all the time. I made one simple change that seems to be helping. I work on a computer alone all day so I changed my homepage to google search. I used to have MSN news but notice a lot of the pictures are of beautiful women and a lot of the stories have a sex theme. I used to get distracted and digress to porn in a matter of minutes. I've also noticed my computer is running faster and I have very few issues with malware these days. Thanks to all of you guys for your journals; it does help.