So I'm still alive anyway, in case anyone's wondering. I'm on day 10, although today wasn't perfect from a recovery point of view. I once read something about addiction being like having an "inner salesman" who tries to persuade you about how great it would be to give in to the addiction. So yeah I did give in a little and briefly looked at a P-sub. Definitely not worth it, damn that salesman! Lol. If it wasn't raining at the time I would have gone for a walk instead. I can't rely on dry weather in my part of the world however, so I better do other things instead.