I haven't had many urges since my last post. My mood wasn't the best yesterday, as a result of a lot of minor stresses happening one after the other. I also had to make an annoying decision or two which brought back bad memories. Later, I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling somewhat depressed. I turned my lamp on, thinking I might take another look at The Power of Now, a book I've read a few times. Instead I noticed Loving What Is, by Byron Katie, on the shelf. This is a book I started but didn't get very far into it. Someone gave it to me after they finished reading it. I didn't take the book down and start reading it. Instead I thought of the books's four questions, or at least how I remembered them: 1. Is it true? (i.e. is whatever negative thing you're thinking true) 2. Is it absolutely true? 3. Who would you be without that story? 4. Imagine your (idea of a) perfect world. That's how I remember the questions. I did a quick google and the last two questions are different. I don't know, maybe the book gives you options. Anyway, it was quite a good way to stop thinking negatively. Something I forgot to mention in the previous post (warning - bodily functions). I often notice that when I relapse, I feel uncomfortably "empty" in, I guess, my prostate area. Lately I've had the opposite probem - feeling really full down there, to the point where sometimes when I sat down I could feel the pressure, if you know what I mean. Also I mentioned in a previous post some unusual bodily function stuff which is related to this issue. I did a quick Google search and found a page where guys were discussing this. A couple of guys recommended the "stomach vacuum exercise" (a quick copy and paste from a workout site: "To execute the Stomach Vacuum, stand upright and place your hands on your hips, and exhale all the air out of your lungs, completely. Expand your chest, and bring your stomach in as much as possible, and hold. Visualize trying to touch your navel to your backbone. One isometric contraction of "X" seconds is one repetition.") I did that several times throughout the day. Either because of the exercise, or because the situation resolved itself, I haven't felt that excessive fullness, nor had the related issues since.