Hello all, stumbled upon Gary Wilsons TEDx video and got me a real wake up call.. Found http://yourbrainonporn.com, read a few journals and now i'm here. First of, I want to apologize in advance if my English is a bit off, not a native English speaker.. Having that said I'll try to avoid wall of text, not only for your sake, but for mine as well. Today I'm 23 years old. The first time I saw porn I must have been about 8 or 9 years old. At the same time probably started MO on a regular basis, which would be daily. At about 14 i got my own computer and PMO became the regular thing, as much as 1 or 2 times a day. 1 or 2 times of MO a day on top of that. I was lucky enough to get my first real girlfriend at 16, the first girl I kissed and the first girl I had sex with. Even luckier, many more after her. I never been single more than 2 months at a time up until i was 20. During my relationships I definitely cut down on PMO and MO, but never stopped, and always picked up the pace when I was single. The common denominator in all relationships but the first is that I broke them up because I was bored, the sex wasn't any fun anymore. This is something I only later realized, after being single for 3 years. 3 years I've spent watching a lot of porn. I never had a problem with ED, unless I've been proper drunk. My porn preferences has gone a bit more extreme, but that of most importance has always been variation. Looking for only one thing for a couple of weeks, until it's hard to find any more good stuff. I am very anxious, I don't have the energy to do anything, I never finish what i start. This is the part that has really struck me reading other peoples stories. That is why as of today I will completely stop with everything. My thoughts right now is maybe I'm not an addict. Maybe this will be easy, this wont even help me in the slightest. I hope this will be difficult as hell. Then there is hope that it actually will help. On the other hand, it's only been 13 hours.