Day 17/93 I am glad I continued to count days in the fray. It helps me to realize that I've been engaged in a hard struggle without quitting. That's been a big problem in my life. I cut and run when things get too hard. It has been described as taking the "geographic cure". It has made mincemeat of my professional and personal relationships. I would just bolt. Now I see that "day 100" on the horizon and I know that even if I relapse that 100 days is mine and it is real. Maybe that isn't a big accomplishment for others here. Most seem to count only days of no PMO. I really need to go the full 15 rounds. Even if I get knocked down, have my ribs broken, and my teeth knocked out, I still need to get up again. For me that is a true victory because my opponent is bigger, stronger, more vicious, and meaner than Mike Tyson. I'm just trying to stand toe to toe with my own Iron Mike Tyson and last. My opponent cannot kill me. Truly it can't. I will survive (I sound like Madonna, lol). I love this metaphor because it empowers me. I'll bob and weave. I'll duck and dodge. I'll throw punches of my own. Whatever it takes, I'll stay in the ring until the final bell. Boy, this post helped me a lot because I know for a FACT that I will make day 100 mine. I can't say that about the no-PMO count because I've relapsed before. But that day 100 is mine. I own it and I earned it. This is a post that I hope to re-read for the rest of the reboot and beyond as nourishment for my soul.