5 days clean, hooray! Had some urges to fantasize. Especially after a couple of days it is easy to get a good kick out of sexual fantasies. was able to resist well. Thanks for your points of view @Saville and @forlorn. That is very helpful and motivating to continue (and not use this as an excuse to not continue). I share your opinion on this, but sometimes I also have my doubts and I feel that as lomg as I keep this a secret to my wife I am withholding true intimacy between us. And it is this intimacy I really want to work on. And, as you described vividly Saville, I guess I don't want to know everything about my wife neither .