Have always been dealing with anger. Strangely enough I only recognized/acknowledged this a few years back. Fapping was a way to deal with it. Depression was a result of it for a very long time. Still working on finding to deal with it, although doing way better. It inceases with the lack of sleep, but also with work stress and my general nice guy (not sufficiently assertive) behaviour. The current situation makes it worse, but is a blessing too. It is the perfect situation to learn. Last night I was really a zen master. Just 2 hours of broken sleep. The twins feeding every 2 hours still and the oldest awake for a large part of tje nigjt as well. The key is to have no expectations at all. As in life, I guess. This morning I told my wife we have 3 beautiful children. She agreed, but said that they don't sleep well. Yet, I said. She agreed. I kissed her and there was love and a feeling we're doing this together.