Where to start? New to seeking help - Optional Context Top & Questions at Bottom

Context
You know why I'm here, but for the sake of admitting it outright - I'm here to stop watching porn.

At 25, I've spent over half my life exposed to porn.

Years of wasted time, shame cycles and a warped sexual identity. All of which bleeds out into how I feel about myself overall as a man.

I have enough fingers to justifiably point at others, my own traumas and the particular times I was born into, while more are still pointed back at myself.

There is an amazingly insane disconnect in when I fall down a deep porn rabbit hole to who I think I am under any other circumstance. But the weight on my mind is getting too much.

I'm here to shout out into the universe in some capacity that this time I really, really want to be done. This isn't the first time I've made this hope, but I want it to be true more than just about anything I can think of related purely to myself.

To stop this insanity I have to try something different, and this is at least one thing.

Ideas for Action:
1. Start as of today and count. Build a streak of 30 days clean.
2. Do not have phone or laptop in/near bed.
3. Find accountability here or in therapy.
4. Restart therapy.
5. I'm open to ideas

Questions
Can someone please let me know that my (prayer?) has been heard?
What are your thoughts on the above?
Can you think of anything else?

Thanks for your attention.

 

Find an accountability partner here by posting that you want one.
Then open a new conversation with the guy under your account.

I would not have done as many days rebooting had it not been that I had done this.

 

I see you and I think you're on the right track. Start a journal in your age area and post to it regularly. I also think it's a requirement to get some blocking going. Try not to worry about streaks so much. You want to leave porn forever, right? You know that you can't consume it even a little bit without it affecting you very badly, right? So yeah, you have to get the mental changes and life changes necessary to leave porn (and porn fantasy) behind forever.