i had "slipped" and slipped away from this site due to shame of not being successful. but i remembered how many times i "slipped" while drinking after i had quit-hundreds. so here i am. like the badger still fighting till death. today is almost done and another successful one. any day without porn is a success.
Me too! Walking is awesome.... Especially for old fucks. Wash-rinse-repeat... Not sure I quit drinking 'hundreds' of times before I pulled up my big girl panties and just quit, but it was in the dozens for sure. This is just different... Waaaaay different... But true, a day without porn is a success. Here's to another successful day. Fuck porn.
TryGuy65, Badger and Saville this is great and inspiring set of exchanges. Im someone who had been on a good streak and then fucked up really badly - yesterday was my first properly porn free day in over a week. Badger I love the sentiment "still fighting till death. today is almost done and another successful one. any day without porn is a success". I so totally agree as someone with only one day and facing major challenges just getting through another one. TryGuy as you say Fuck Porn!
As knee issues push the likelihood of ever participating in triathlon again into the 'not-likely' status, I've changed a few things. Signature line now reflects 'try' instead of 'tri' and as I'm chasing down 65, I'm reflecting that also... (fuck) Also changed my av. I'm not sure I'll keep it, but for now it seems appropriate. "Whether you 'think you can' or 'think you can't' - you're right". Thanks Henry... My mantra since 2008 has been tri-till-I-die... That never was meant to mean I would be participating in triathlons until I passed, (although that would be awesome) it is more of never stopping living my life to the fullest... Being active... Trying new things and adventures... What's the alternative? Porn is defeatist. Now I need to go for a walk and stop by the fitness center for a quick lift... Because that's the way I roll now. (and in a couple of hours it will be 110) Fuck porn
A 110! , indeed! As an old fucker myself it can be hard realizing that the body needs to be cared for. But, as you say, it doesn't stop us from being active and pursuing interesting things. I've shed 20lbs over the past five months and am hoping this will take the pressure off my beleaguered knees. It's interesting that we have a few guys in their 60's here, but no one in their 70's. Perhaps at that age we finally have no libido left. Good to have you back and posting.
Going back a few posts my jaw dropped in amazment when I was reading about your triathlons (bummer about the issues caused by your knee). Pre-pandemic I used to swim quite alot and from that knew a couple of people in the local tri-club. That is one seriously tough sport and to be doing when you are not ...err a spring chicken is f...ing amazing!
It's a 'dry-heat'..... Thanks for the visit Mr. Sunshine,,, Good thing I'm only 46! At least that's the way I read it No issues on the porn front. But let's give it some time. After all it's only 5:30am... Fuck porn
Decided to throw up a counter. Maybe it will help motivate me a bit to continue on a porn free path. And I don't have to calculate dates!... Math was never a strong suit A bit sluggish today. Bit of brain fog. But I'm also taking a tolerance break from cannabis... I knew legal weed would fuck with me too... Fuck, it sucks being a junkie... But given the choice - it's fuck porn.
My head feels three times it's normal size. I would usually blame it on my caffeine consumption, but doubt that's the issue today. However, I'm sitting here drinking some coffee just to be sure... I was just watching some stupid movie with Andie MacDowell (ready or not) and instantly found myself searching images of her. I've always had a thing for her... Course I had to add in 'topless'... Score!!! This is how it always starts with me. Not usually a big fuck-it moment where I start out searching for donkey sex, but just spend a few days triggering-up the pleasure pathways... YouTube shit and such. (Andie topless) HALT - hungry-angry-lonely & tired... An acronym I first learned in my quit-drinking journey... I'm not hungry, angry, or feeling exceptionally lonely, but I am tired as fuck. Chances are pretty good I'll have a couple more nights of restless sleep before a good one comes my way. That's just the process... Then the dreams will start... Vivid dreams... I kinda like the vivid dreams. I know many people don't.... Cannabis is known to suppress our dream state.... So I got the double whammy of withdrawing from two addictions at once. Yay Tommy... But I switched from Andie to this site rather rapidly... It's worked. Think I'm safe for the rest of the day... Guess there's not much substitution for porn. At least now I can now handle a nice cold NA beer on a hot day without being triggered to down an entire 6pack in 20 minutes... Porn will never allow me a quick view of Andie's tits without stirring up some 'feelings'... On a side note - She is well put together, attractive, and is aging well... If anyone happens to know her, please pass along I said so... FUCK porn...
Wrong Andie And Gomer at least got his own show... Who want's to be a goober! Interesting. Do they 'hoof' one another or is it just a lickin' kind of thing... Lesbians are cool - unless they're goobers... All's quiet on the porn front... Fuck porn.
I chuckle, then ponder, when I think back to HS and a priest who conducted a 'sex-ed' class... He one time walked over to the light switch and turned off the lights... He then flicked them on and said, "that's how fast a man can get excited"... Don't know why I still read the feeds I get from Quora. Maybe it's because I find humor in reading the stupid questions people ask, and wonder who the individual is who actually takes the time to write out a response...But it's, at times, also a trigger. While the site supposedly doesn't allow/condone sexual content, it sure appears... Bam! There it was just a few minutes ago. Nude selfie... And just like that priest declared, I lit up like a light being turned on... The urge to continue down the rabbit hole was strong as my manhood sprang back to life. My ONLY and quickest way to detour from those urges was to come here and post. I already feel stronger writing these few words... But part of his 'education' was to also lay guilt on us about masturbation... How god designed us to get 'relief' through our nocturnal emissions... Guess that's how they stayed celibate... I now ride the border between agnostic and atheist. The catholic church is wacked. Bishops now want to deny Biden communion because his position on choice... While I'm not exactly pro abortion, I'm also not inclined to dictate what a person can or can not do with their body... Hypocrisy runs deep in formalized religion... I'm not trying to turn this into a debate about the existence of a supreme being, because I know many find comfort in that realm. I just believe that this is it. This life is all we're going to get. I believe in the Golden Rule... I also believe I diverge in my rants... This is the anger that wells up in me during withdrawal... When the beast fucks with me, I write him out. So, now I feel a little more relaxed. Ready to go out in my 100 degree garage, get on my trainer, and ride/sweat out any remaining weakness to PMO... I know MO is probably on the horizon. I also know that MO can quickly lead back to PMO... This is part of this fight... Fuck fuck fuck... On the flip side - It's National Selfie Day!!! Remember when all we had was the arrival of the good ol' JCPenney/Sears catalog? Fuck porn... Thanks Al
So much bullshit laid at the door of young children. Our families and our teachers foist on us their baggage, their cynicism, and their failures and expect us to grow up to be healthy adults. OMG, like, and I missed it!
Our monsoon is finally kicking up. It's my favorite time of the year. I love watching the thunder storms in the evening drift aside the Catalina mountains... Nature is a wonderous thing - porn is not. Fuck porn.
In the couple weeks I've stopped smoking weed, I've lost 5lbs and looks like I'm back under 170... Not a huge challenge on the porn front as of yet. A couple moments yesterday when some shit came my way... I'd at least like to make it back to the 30 days or so I reached in 2019... I'm thinking I'll most likely take down my counter after I reach 30. I personally don't find it motivates me to keep going... But nothings firm yet
