Guess this is my final journal post… I suppose I’m only doing it for the closure. Hopefully it provides that. It’s kinda sad that @Amanda won’t be starting a 3rd year celebration thread for me next month. Thanks for the first 2 Amanda… Almost every day for the past 3 years, except when on vacation, or away from the house, I’ve logged into the cue to check what was going on. I’ve even been doing it the last couple of months as activity dwindled down to nothing...I completed the biggest event of my life last month, and didn’t even bother to journal it… But after close to 50 races since 2008, I finally consider myself a triathlete. The completion of a 2.4 mile swim/112 mile bike/26.2 mile run, changes you… I’ll be 60 in 5 months. Into my prime I go. An Ironman… I won’t be joining my fellow cuesters on the other social media sites that have been opened. I wish you all well. But a couple months back I learned of another demon in my life. Porn… I’ve joked many times about porn. With most guys, it’s a non-issue. We like it. And most of us started liking it at a fairly early age… But since the advent of high-speed internet, the way we view it has radically changed… My public service announcement: If you have a habit of looking at online porn, and your sex life is not where you’d like it to be, (men and women) check out yourbrainonporn.com… So that’s it… According to the counter, my 3-4 followers have provided 1145 responses and 18,491 views of my journal. There’s a rant in there someplace… But thanks for the support about covers it… If you’re still fighting the battle, keep it up. Never quit quitting. (Holy fuck. I can’t believe I just wrote that!) However, when you’re really ready, you’ll know it… Then Tommy’s way works… Wake up. Tell yourself you are not drinking today. TODAY! Fuck tomorrow. TODAY! Just make it through today. Do WHATEVER it takes to get to bed sober… Wake up and do it again. WHATEVER Man the fuck up. Pull up your big girl panties. Suck it up princess You’re welcome, Tommy ========================================================================== This the last entry to my journal from a site that helped save my life... Well, helped me in the direction I needed to go anyway. I put it up as an introduction. The post was done on December 16th, 2016... Two months earlier I 'discovered' PMO had severely fucked me up... And I didn't even know it... At least alcohol was kind enough to let me know that if I didn't stop it would eventually kill me... PMO? - Hospitalization with a raw dick? Bottom line: It's taken me almost a year to 'accept' that I need to quit MOin' to P... I'm starting a Journal of my journey with beating PMO now. And it's going to start with just the porn aspect right now... Later? I'm open... I chose YBR because I can already feel a kinship with a few who post in the 40+... An attitude. A resolve... I have an attitude. A resolve... What I've observed over past (almost year), is that quitting porn seems to me to be very much like quitting alcohol... Porn may be just much more of a battle for me... But I shall slay it also.