I've certainly had my struggles with Internet porn and m/b. Most for me has always been softcore stuff like nude models..etc. I'm 48 now and have been in long term relationships and currently live with my g/f of 2.5yrs. And I'll be brutally honest. I don't know if I want to be in a relationship anymore. I'm not that satisfied in this one for various reasons: 1-my current g/f I don't think really "gets me" or at least my sense of humor/sarcasm. Many do. She doesn't really or doesn't find me funny anymore where most people definitely do. Maybe relationships get like that after awhile but it's no fun being with someone who really doesn't get your wit. 2-Besides the occasional sex/cuddling, relationships bore me. I almost never want to watch what she wants to. We rarely ever have good conversations. 3-Always petty arguments and nitpicking 4-Drama of her stepson at times. 5-Sex gets so old with the same person. I don't buy into the "change positions, role play..BS". It gets old. Not to mention when she gains 20lbs since the first time you met her. Just all in all, I'm happy with my hobbies, dog....doing my thing, socializing with my neighbors. I'm just starting to think I don't want/need a relationship. And if I beat off to porn here and there so be it. Sure being single is lonely at times. But when I'm in one, I always seem to want out after awhile. Did I "not meet the right one yet"? Possibly. But a big part of me doesn't care. And honestly I'm not even attracted to women in their 40s anymore. Sad but true.