I have had a terrible couple of days preceded by another couple of bad days. Last weekend was my first under the separation. It was me and the boys. This week is our last in the house together. I am the one that goes away this weekend. Up until this week I've done pretty well, feeling my emotions and not blocking them out with PMO. This week ... still no P or O and not really any "M" (more like "m" as I would catch myself with my hands where they shouldn't be, almost subscounsiously). A technical rules violation that is going to cause me when I'm done with this post to reset the counter. So back to Day 1, with the counter set at 18 today, the reality is that my high water mark is realistically like day 16. I have discovered through this that there is power in routine. I did so well through this streak and others by staying with a common routine. The change in the separation game means that I have about 2 more weeks of changes until we set into a regular routine. That starts with me on for a week starting Monday. I'll do one week on, then one off. Off weeks I'll be living out of the house. This week being a transition week I didn't well following the routine I had set prior to this week. High stress plus irregular routine = BAD! Fitness, which has been so important to my reboot/rewire suffered. And I spent a lot of time thinking about what comes next .... which created cracks in my process. So this weekend my takeaway task is to write out a detailed two week routine that I can work from that includes the things I'll do each day of this two week rotation. Sucks. But it is progress of a sort.