Hi! First of all, I apologize for my English, not my native language. I would like to ask for help and whom to turn to, if not to you. My story in brief: I am 33 years old and I think that i have PIED. I have been doing only PMO for 10 years on daily basis (once per day watching “normal” videos, nothing extreme) to compensate the stress and frustration resulted by the following reasons: - In my early 20s I really (desperately) wanted a serious relationship. But I did not succeed and I was very frustrated because of this. And I began PMOing. Now I haven’t had sexual relationship for six(!) years. - 3 years ago i was diagnosed with testicular cancer, had surgery and recovered. After this I thought I start with a clean slate and I'm going to enjoy life, but... still no girlfriend. I think they realize that I cannot approach them with relief, like the “casuall” way, and this is not sympatic to them ofc. So I feel myself lonely and isolated, which is much worse than PIED (believe me), despite of I am a better-than-average looking guy as my friends (girls) say, doing sport, have lot of friends etc. - The ED has begun about 5 years ago, one year after I broke up with my last girlfriend. I have been doing fast PMO on a daily basis since then, I can produce only weak/half erection even with P, and there are no morning woods too. I experience PMO like a relief, after which I don’t think about my loneliness... I know I should change my life, but I do not dare to go dating because of the ED. But this means I have no girlfriend, So I'm stressed and watch P in order to eliminate the stress, but this leads (I think) to ED. The vicious circle is closed. Now I have began a 90 day reboot cycle, I have been without PMO for 5 days. Sometimes I feel the urge to get an erection, but i cannot produce it. I am very determined to overcome this health condition, but I read that the PIED means that hard erection can be maintained with porn, but my is/was only weak with porn (and even without it). My question is: - Can we talk about PIED with weak erection during PMO? It’s important to know, because i want to decide to do a reboot or visit a doctor at first. I checked the information on YBOP but I couldn’t find clear answer. Thank you for reading this, and I would really glad to read some of your similar experiences or advices. I wish happy and peaceful Christmas for everybody! Haen
Hey fellow porn-addicted, the first point is: P is bad for you,because kill your confidence,give you anxiety,bad mood,lack of motivation (if you can get the ultimate of rush/pleasure in front of a screen,you are not motivated to search it in real and healthy life),ecc ecc. Doing the reboot is only helpful for you and buld a life without porn is much better than waste your energy in fake fantasies. But you can go to a doctor and check your health (blood,hormones,prostate...),it will be useful to exclude any other problems.You can go to doctor and do reboot at the same time. I was scared as hell like you,I'm at your age and my penis didn't work even with the hardest porn (with women a total zero,no libido,anxiety,fear...). During the reboot I'm improved,a lot.I'm not totally fine because I have not the rock hard penis as I used to have,but I can have sex with condom. But the biggest improvements are on my whole life and my problem with motivation and anxiety.Check my first post on journal,if you want. I can't say to you how to recover 100%,because I'm not yet,but you can improve your life a lot and eventually you can recover. So yes,we can talk about PIED,because you watched P for 10 years. I relapsed two time in the last days,but now I'm more motivated than ever because I want a fullfill life.I'm on 14 months on reboot,I'm a bad case,but we have to pay for what we have done with our lives.Now I'm working on my pelvic muscles,because maybe they are one of the causes of PIED. My suggestions are: avoid P and P substitutes like lingerie models or music video avoid MO (at least for a while,and when you do not fantasize about P or nothing,just focus on sensation) read the book "Your brain on porn" by Gary Wilson and the articles on his site read the important posts here and the success stories,they are inspirational do good and healthy things like sports,reading,meditation,talk to people,spend time in nature,learn something... And remember that P addiction is a real addiction so your brain will tempt you to go back to porn.And the brain is subtle,because you think that your thought are right,but they are not.This is rationalization,and occur when you less expect it.Example of rationalization is: "I still PMO because first I want to go doctor" this is your brain trying to trick you,because he crave the rush of dopamine or other chemicals. Man,you know yet where porn leaded you.Remember your goals and P is an obstacle to reach them. Merry Christmas to you and good luck,you have to work on you and read about this problems,but reboot works and worths.
Between ages 19-22 i could not get an erection at all beyond 50% with even the most extreme porn or fantasy. I did not get any morning wood since around age 18. Not once. After around 4 months no porn my erections were rock solid again and around 11 months (with some relapses) my morning wood returned daily and still has to this day 2 years after that point.
