Was it a one-way trip to hell?

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by niskanen91, Mar 13, 2016.

  1. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Day 5.

    Feeling a bit better. Therapist turned out to be disappointing to be honest, I'll look for better one.
     
  2. GamerKT

    GamerKT New Member

    LET'S GO!!!!!
     
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  3. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    MO'd without porn.

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last PMO - Apr 8, 2021
    Last MO - Apr 13, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - 5

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 (until Apr 13th) - 5

    In both February and March I have MO'd (alone or during the visits to dommes) on an almost 1 orgasm per 2 days pace, which is a textbook example of overriding the natural libido.

    I'd never guess that without writing down every single orgasm.
     
    Last edited: Apr 13, 2021
  4. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Day 6.

    Wanking without porn provided some relief but no hangover and beta feeling that are always associated with porn sessions.

    Going in the right direction.
     
  5. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Day 9.

    No major updates. Soccer today, trying new therapist on Monday, slowly improving my life.
     
  6. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Day 13.

    Feeling much better!
     
  7. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    MO'd without porn, tension was quite high and I couldn't fall asleep (maybe partially also due to the hunger, who knows).

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last PMO - Apr 8, 2021
    Last MO - Apr 21, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - 1

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 (until Apr 22nd) - 6
     
  8. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Small defeat in my journey, MO without porn.

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last PMO - Apr 8, 2021
    Last MO - Apr 23, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - 2

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 (until Apr 22nd) - 7
     
  9. The trend is downward. Keep pushing.
     
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  10. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Yeah, when I relapsed to porn, it has led to multiple orgasms but in the past I had months with a lot of MOs even if I wasn't using porn so I'm tracking that to make sure that I'm always reasonably horny :)
     
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  11. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    MO'd without porn, again.

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last PMO - Apr 8, 2021
    Last MO - Apr 24, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - 3

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 (until Apr 22nd) - 8
     
  12. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    MO'd without porn (but read some femdom blog today sadly).

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last PMO - Apr 25, 2021
    Last MO - Apr 25, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - 4

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 (until Apr 22nd) - 9

    EDIT:
    After thinking about it, decided to reclassify yesterday's reading of femdom blogs/forums as a porn usage since it's an artificial sexual material.
     
    Last edited: Apr 26, 2021
  13. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    2x PMO

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last PMO - Apr 26, 2021
    Last MO - Apr 26, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - 6

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 (until Apr 26th) - 11
     
    Last edited: Apr 26, 2021
  14. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Just pasting 6 rules again:

    1) No porn - doesn't need explanation. Relapsing to porn is like relapsing to cigarettes, nothing else matters if I don't stay away from P.
    2) No substitutes - if it's ain't real, no deal. In the past stories, photos etc. had similar effect as porn. So FetLife and femdom stories count as porn.
    3) MO is bad because it keeps me away from real deal (as it lowers the tension and decreases libido, plus it keeps my sexuality in fantasy land). It's not as bad as porn though and I can recover completely in 7-10 days (I think) so I'll keep separate counter for that.
    4) Training (both soccer and strength) is good as, among many other benefits, it makes me horny.
    5) Escorts, despite disadvantages are good because:
    a) they keep my sexuality closer to reality,
    b) sexual experience (I have obviously very little),
    c) zero consequences (social) if my penis doesn't work.
    So whenever I feel horniness towards real girls on the streets/anywhere, I'll just go visit an escort. This is very important part of the strategy.
    6) Distinction between femdom and vanilla isn't important at this point as long as it happens in real life. Discovery of my REAL preferences is an additional but important goal of this journey.
     
  15. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    MO.

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last PMO - Apr 26, 2021
    Last MO - Apr 27, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - 7

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 (until Apr 26th) - 12
     
  16. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Porn binge with two orgasms.

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last PMO - Apr 29, 2021
    Last MO - Apr 29, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - doesnt matter

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 - 14
     
  17. TrueDat

    TrueDat Active Member

    Hope you get out of this, good luck! Keep fighting the good fight.
     
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  18. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Thanks, mate. Those words are always appreciated and especially when I'm just in the middle of a one big binge.

    Congratz on 48 days!
     
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  19. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Relapse 2xPMO

    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
    Last MO - May 3, 2021
    Last MO - May 3, 2021
    Orgasms in the last 7 days - doesnt matter

    Also amount of orgasms in given months:
    Jan '21 (counted since Jan 18th) - 3
    Feb '21 - 15
    Mar '21 - 14
    Apr '21 - 14
    May '21 - 2

    The counter for given months doesn't matter that much when I'm using porn (because dick won't work anyway) but will keep it to have some data after I give up porn.
     
    Last edited: May 3, 2021
  20. Man I'm proud of you for still posting. I haven't been here since September 2020, and here you are still fighting the good fight.

    You're incredible, my dude. Don't ever give up on yourself <3
     
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