Was it a one-way trip to hell?

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  1. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    So it'd look like this:
    Last PMO - Aug 27, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Aug 30, 2020
    Last healthy MO - x
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018

    Mix of vanilla and femdom fantasies. Very horny lately.
     
  2. niskanen91

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    Last PMO - Aug 30, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Aug 30, 2020
    Last healthy MO - x
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018

    Relapsed to FetLife pics. I'll count that as PMO.
     
  3. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Day 1 now.

    Feeling "hangover" from lots of orgasms, porn and masturbation from recent days. The knowledge gained in the last 2 weeks is valuable though as now it's clear that not only porn is the enemy but also loneliness and fantasy. Visiting domme wasn't harmful IMO but was also disappointing in terms of arousal.

    "If it ain't real, no deal" is the motto of my new reboot :)
     
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  4. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Day 1 survived.

    I will only feel better from that point on.
     
  5. niskanen91

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    Day 2 survived.

    Having to work a lot certainly helps. :)
     
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  6. niskanen91

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    4 days survived! First weekend ahead!
     
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    niskanen91 Active Member

    Last PMO - Aug 30, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Aug 30, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 7, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018

    After 8 days, I needed a relief so masturbated in a "healthy" way (quickly, without engaging in unrealistic fantasies).
     
  8. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Last PMO - Aug 30, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Aug 30, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 9, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018

    Another MO, was feeling very horny. Arousal towards real women is slowly coming back.

    10 days without porn! :)
     
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  9. niskanen91

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    Last PMO - Aug 30, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Aug 30, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 11, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018

    Masturbated using silicon pussy. I count it as "healthy" as it's vanilla masturbation and doesn't involve my hand, gets me ready for real deal.
     
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  10. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    2x PMO ends the streak

    Last PMO - Sep 11, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Aug 30, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 11, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
     
  11. UK Don

    UK Don Active Member

    Don't worry niskanen, congrats on the day 10 streak you achieved!

    Now pick yourself up again and lets see how far you can go this time, I believe in you
     
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  12. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Last PMO - Sep 13, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Aug 30, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 13, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
     
  13. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    MO'd to mix of vanilla and femdom (50/50 I'd say).

    Last PMO - Sep 13, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Sep 15, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 15, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
     
  14. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Day 4 of no porn!

    Last PMO - Sep 13, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Sep 15, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 15, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
     
  15. UK Don

    UK Don Active Member

    Nice! Keep it up mate
     
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  16. niskanen91

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    10 days without porn, 8 days without MO. Feeling horny but more alpha :)
     
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  17. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Due to the tension, MO'd in a healthy way (quickly) but there were some femdom fantasies (mix of vanilla + femdom). I will count that as both femdom and healthy then:

    Last PMO - Sep 13, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Sep 24, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 24, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
     
  18. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    2 weeks without porn! :eek:
     
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  19. Battlesword1

    Battlesword1 Active Member

    Keep on keeping on!
     
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  20. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    MO'd. Tension was a bit too high, had lots of fantasies today. On the one hand, the good thing is that I'm not using porn (and any artificial stimuli) and I'm not spending hours wanking (it was quick one), on the other hand, masturbating to things other than my own touch keeps me away from being able to have real sex.

    Mixed feelings.

    Last PMO - Sep 13, 2020
    Last MO to femdom fantasies - Sep 27, 2020
    Last healthy MO - Sep 27, 2020
    Last cig - Aug 11, 2018
     

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