Was it a one-way trip to hell?

Last PMO - Jun 16, 2020
Last MO - Jun 30, 2020

2 weeks without porn

 

MO - July 3, 2020

 

Last PMO - July 6, 2020

From this point on, will not post last MOs. Only relapses to porn.

The reason of relapse, as always, was usage of FetLife.

 

Fetlife account will be deleted in 7 days

Your account has been deactivated and is scheduled to be deleted seven days from now.

Need to think how to access events in the future but so far almost of all visits there ended up in masturbating to fantasy rather than going to events.

EDIT: Also, I've decided to keep writing down MOs.

 

3 days without porn.

Worked a bit on my tension with therapist and I'm feeling a-ma-zing!

 

Nice dude! let technology take care of you and delete itself!

 

relapse Jul 10, 2020

 

last MO - Jul 15

 

relapse Jul 17th

 

MO Jul 18th

 

MO Jul 19th

 

It's all good mate, keep on keepin' on

 

MO Jul 22th

 

MO - Jul 25th

8 days without porn

 

relapsed Jul 25th

 

Take a quick look. You don't have to watch all of it.

 

relapsed Jul 27th

 

I skimmed through a lot of this thread, and I am vibing with your journey. I know what it's like to try-fail-try-fail-try-fail over and over, but you've been going on four years since your first post now, and you're still trying!

That's simply incredible. I'm in awe of both your honesty to yourself and your perseverance. Don't ever give up, man. One day (possibly even today) you will "try again" for the last time.

Stay strong. You can do this.

 

@TimeToActuallyTry

Thanks for your warm words, they mean a lot to me!

3 days without porn.

 

relapsed.

Last cig - Aug 11, 2018 (anniversary is coming),
Last PMO - Jul 31, 2020