Was it a one-way trip to hell?

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  1. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Last PMO - Nov 12
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    Relapsed after being clean for 37 days. I'm absolutely destroyed.
     
  2. niskanen91

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    No comments. :(
     
  3. Pete McVries

    Pete McVries Member

    Come on, back on the horse, no more series of relapses!
     
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  4. niskanen91

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  9. niskanen91

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    With this year slowly coming to an end, it's time to sum it up a little in terms of development and also share with you an action plan that I have came up with this weekend.

    Basically, during this year the only victory was giving up cigarettes but it was absolutely the biggest success I could have achieved. I didn't smoke a single cigarette (not even a single puff) during the last 3.5 months, there's zero desire to go back to smoking ever again. I also was working full-time for a full year so it helped me develop professionally and also socially.

    What needs to be done?
    1) Porn - it's harder to give up than I initially thought. But just like cigarettes, it absolutely needs to be done.
    2) Stomach issues. Since they appear only in social settings of any kind, I think they may be related to social anxiety. I'm going to fix that with psychotherapy.
    3) Sports - I need to back on track there.
     
  10. niskanen91

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    3 days x)
     
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  14. Naruto558

    Naruto558 Member

    one thing that i would like to tell you is that this fetish is all in your head. you are a completely normal human male that is capable of having sex . you have to believe that. in fact you must change your whole perception when it comes to this fetish. You must develop this belief that everything you do is under your control, no more learned helplessness,no more thinking cant get out of bed,exercise or study because I have this fetish and it makes me depressed. Start of with developing the belief that you are In FULL CONTROL OF YOUR ACTIONS. femdom takes this away from you it makes you feel a loss of control that gets embed in your psyche. Second thing you have to do is FULLY BELIEVE THAT YOU WILL BE REWIRED IF YOU STAY PMO FREE. femdom takes your self beif away from you and your sense of control away from you. Get those two things back and this addiction will leave your life. Also stay in the present moment never try to predict when you will be rewired just take it one day at a time.
     
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  15. Naruto558

    Naruto558 Member

    good luck brother,its just about getting your self belief back dude. learn to love yourself and believe in yourself again
     
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  16. Naruto558

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    I better not see another post from you that says you relapsed. To be honest with you brother ive gotten off on all the shit you have and it breaks my heart that out there is some individual that is suffering from this. You deserve so much better than this my brother,no human being on the planet deserves the treatment that s being shown in those femdom videos. Next time your about to relapse ask yourself what did i do to deserve the pain and humiliation im about to give myself right now? The answer to that question is absolutely motherfucking nothing. Your not a fucking rapist or murder brother,you dont deserve what you pit yourself through.
     
  17. Naruto558

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    It would be very helpful if you could post whats going through your head and what your feeling when you relapse. In this way we can get an idea on what it is that causes you to pmo to femdom
     
  18. niskanen91

    niskanen91 Active Member

    Last PMO - Dec 25
    Last cig - Aug 11

    @Naruto558 ,

    Thank you for your input, mate. It's very helpful and to answer your question - I'm just horny and "let it go" using porn. I'm not depressed or anything, it's just the way I rewired my "sex life". And I don't know why I use femdom, I always used it. What you're saying is true, I think that it's possible me for me to have real sex, just need to give up porn.
     
  19. niskanen91

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    Last PMO - Dec 25
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    Last caffeine - Dec 26
     
  20. Naruto558

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    Good job on stopping cigarettes mate. Now you just gotta stop fapping and your life is set. You gotta take responsibility and understand that every single action you take is under your control. Your the one that decides to fap. There is nothing in this world that controls your actions except you. When you stop blaming outside events and take full responsibility for your actions you will heal. Make the right decisions myBrother. Remember your the one that decides to fap and it’s time for you to make the right decision.
     
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