Want to be Clever And Smarter Again!!(58 Days Streak Ended :(

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  1. weir

    weir Member

    Re: Want to be Clever And Smarter Again!!

    DAY 32

    Today I got urges few times to watch P but I didn't go there and will not go there again!
    No morning wood from few days and also I did not recognize any other changes in my body, But what I have got after leaving Porn is still gift to me, I am sitting all alone in my room but No porn No masturbation, In my backyard of my home there are literally thousands of new old handkerchiefs and napkin where throw it from my window after my ejaculation had ended but by seeing today that I feel oh my how much I have wasted but glad that I am still pretty young to be say, So I still have chance to complete recover myself.

    Self Improvement

    So after trying myself for 2 days I still not getting success to keep my mouth shut but in evening I pretty much calm down myself and just carefully listen to them and I didn't replied, so yeah right feeling some positive, So today I didn't hangout with any of my friend so there is no question of dumbness but I know I can, basically my strategy is just to keep myself as possible as on PMO things and its recovery and my job, The main reason behind is I don't want to be extreme Pissed of by any incident so that Again I relapsed to porn, I am doing as you guyz know so I don't want to break my streak, Just I want peace and concentration on money and job and daily writing on forums about my experience, So guys that's it for today.

    #keepsupporting #keepsuggesting #PornIsEvil #StayClean
     
  2. fightback20

    fightback20 New Member

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    Keep it up man, you're doing really well :)
     
  3. weir

    weir Member

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    Thanks for support mate, Really Need support to rewire my brain.
     
  4. weir

    weir Member

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    Day 33

    Today Had Little Sex Chat With Fiance But Nothing More, I stop Talking to her after few Minutes But Soon Hang Up Phone, Because Its Leading Me too Porn. Also Watching Funny Movie Reviews On YouTube but Oh My Creator YouTube Becoming More Dangerous Now a days, Rough Language and also no-censorship, and also music video playing asa advertise is no safe, it triggers you, I felt very very very horny just by watching girl on her skirt, My Erection got so hard and I cant believe it but As I am realizing now YouTube is no-safe, So I have decided solidly wont watch you tube again up to my recover though.Also Made a post on emergency thread but got no response btw Feeling happy I haven't Relapsed though.
     
  5. weir

    weir Member

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    Day 34

    Day 34 was ok, Today Had no feeling to watch Porn Or Masturbation.

    Personality Development

    Today I Actually Taken A Big Step to Improve My Personality & Other Important Things.
    Today I Make Counter for To Achieve Following Things

    Rebooting Lifestyle

    1.Stop Watching Movies
    2.Stopping Every Entertaining Videos On Tube Sites & Mobile
    3.STOP Watching WWE
    4.Stop Watching General TV Shows

    Implementing New Lifestyle

    5.Several Goals For Prayer & Worshiping
    6.Several Goals For Healing My Self With Worshiping
    7.Daily Working 8 hours
    8.Daily 8 Hours Sleeping
    9.Compulsory Sleeping Before 12.00 AM

    Personality Development Skills

    10.Unnecessary Speaking
    11.Staying Positive
    12.Keep Mouth Shut

    So Yeah Many Goals I Have Created To Achieve..You Wont Believe It But I Have Made Counter For Each One Of Them.
    I Know I can Implement Things Which I Have Been Missing From My Life & Also Avoid Things From My Life Which Is Unnecessary & Degrading.

    I Only Hope From Creator I will Succeed.
     
  6. my.last.attempt

    my.last.attempt Dream the impossible dream!

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    I'm glad to see that you are still making a good progress, it is very important to have goals and keep moving towards them, that will give you purpose, that will make you better and happier. Do your best mate !
     
  7. weir

    weir Member

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    Yes Mate You Are Right, After Stopping Porn & Masturbation Life Is Becoming Amazing, I want To Do Something Amazing, Something Beautiful With My Life, I think My Brain Slowly Moving Away From Porn & Masturbation & I Am Slowly Concentrating Other Aspects Of Life.
     
  8. weir

    weir Member

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    Day 35

    Today Is mark my black day, I have big fight with my mother. I am feeling regret. I don't know why I am getting aggressive, I am telling you guys feeling very aggressive, I just don't know I have quit porn 35 days ago but My aggression is becoming massive, Very massive, very very massive .

    Help me what is the problem with me.
     
  9. weir

    weir Member

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    Day 36

    I Was Feeling Very Angry, I cant Handle Any Things, Feeling Lots Of Negative Energy, Feeling Like I nned To Killed MySelf.

    Day 37

    Today I got Good Sleep, Feeling Really Well, & Also I decided not too think negative & I also forgave everyone and thought positively then had great sleep, when I woke up I felt Amazingly Positiveness, My brain is calm & everything was Just ok.
     
  10. Letscrackthis

    Letscrackthis "He is not here, for he has risen!"

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    Hey, where'd you get the 'current award' pictures in your sig from?

    And practicing positivity, gratitude and forgiveness is very beneficial. Perhaps also meditate to get rid of those negative thoughts.
     
  11. weir

    weir Member

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    The Award thing is helping me to achieve shorter goals & shorter goals will help me to reach my 365 days goals, that is the only reason I have implemented Award Things in my Rebooting Process.

    And As you asked It Was 1st discovered by my friend @Unwise Click here to read

    & Then 1st Implemented By myself From Then, We both enjoying it to maintain our larger goals (365 days) by achieving shorter goals & Its great To motivate our self..

    Here is complete list


    [table]
    [tr][td]Img[/td][td]Level Name[/td][td]Days[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Silver Dragon[/td][td]365[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Red Dragon[/td][td]335[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Blue Dragon[/td][td]305[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Diamond Wand[/td][td]280[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Ruby Wand[/td][td]255[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Sapphire Wand[/td][td]230[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Violet Wand[/td][td]205[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Gold Double Sided Axe+[/td][td]180[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Gold Double Sided Axe[/td][td]160[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Silver Double Sided Axe+[/td][td]140[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Silver Double Sided Axe[/td][td]120[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Metal Double Sided Axe+ [/td][td]105[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Metal Double Sided Axe[/td][td]90[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Double Gold Axe[/td][td]75[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Gold Axe[/td][td]60[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Double Silver Axe[/td][td]50[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Silver Axe[/td][td]40[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Double Metal Axe[/td][td]30[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Metal Axe[/td][td]21[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Double Stone Axe[/td][td]14[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Stone Axe[/td][td]7[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Double Wood Hammer[/td][td]3[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]Wood Hammer[/td][td]1[/td][/tr]

    [tr][td][​IMG][/td][td]A Little Chick[/td][td]0[/td][/tr]
    [/table]

    After Completing 40 Days I will Get Silver Axe [​IMG] & After that I will hunt for Double Silver Axe [​IMG]

    And This Is From Gunbound Game.
     
  12. weir

    weir Member

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    Day 38

    Today is good day, nothing happened much, I am still facing problems on my other goals which I have created other than PMO, But From now I have to concentrate on that goals seriously.

    From Today my mind is craving for porn, You know there is a strange feeling inside telling me oh my I have to see that, Oh that movie would be released, Oh I am missing that, But When I am avoiding all this my mind my Penis is starting to erect and It giving me erections, though still I am not even watching anything or not even fantasizing, Just a simple think comes to my brain for couple of seconds & then it goes away.
    I need to prepare myself to move on my other goals, I know I can do that too.
     
  13. Kidicarus7

    Kidicarus7 Guest

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    Yes bro do t give in to the thoughts because it seems innocent at first but then it slowly creeps up on you a few days later and you feel like your going to explode. This is what happened to me.
     
  14. weir

    weir Member

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    @Kidicarus7
    Yep bro exactly, Yesterday was interesting day I just left my room, and start shouting save me save me, Everyone asking me why am I shouting, I just smiled to them move out of from my house :)

    Day 39

    Today While I was sleeping in morning I had dream that I have become beautiful person, It was such great dream I never forget, I saw my chick has glowed & everyone is admiring me, I am handsome guy btw but everyone appreciating me, After wake up from my dream I thought its just because of the energy I am getting having positive effects on my brain, I am damn happy because of energy I am getting and I have been great to myself ( at least for today).
    While browsing some files on website today I saw a title of one of the porn movies, then my brain insist me to click it but I just closed the tab, I am amazed how a good website having a porn movies promotion or ads, The admin is so cheap of that blog having promotion of porn movies, Thanks to creator I have installed filtered application on my personal computer , who doesn't display any image or banner, Surfing on internet is not safe anymore but thanks to creator we have tools to protect ourselves.
    I am still unable to achieve my other goals apart from PMO but I know its just just been 39 days since I left PMO, I think I have to make shorter time goals for my other activities, But I will be glad if I can manage it too.
    Do any one know any good website where people have tracker counter about personality development, If any one knows please lemme know, It will be great help.
    Thanks for reading.
     
  15. my.last.attempt

    my.last.attempt Dream the impossible dream!

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    Keep strong @weir! I tried to have progress track-bars before but from my personal experience you get more things done by just doing the things, you can take a long time to create a perfect plan and yet have nothing done. Sometimes we use planning as an excuse to not start doing the things we must do. Non of the planning strategies worked for me, so now I just do things instead of planning and looking for tools. Keep your good work !
     
  16. weir

    weir Member

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    Yep mate, You are right but my problem is I have been sitting idle in my home doing nothing, And if I realized doing something then at that time I just don't know what to do next, Life become meaningless but I got to know about brain fog May be I am trapped in this because of my excessive use of porn. Today I have done something as per my plan and feeling good. I am hoping as per days going I want to do more things to be done & give my life a great start.

    Day 40

    YouTube is our enemy I just don't know why in the world YouTube got uncensored, Thanks to creator I haven't failed in that trap.
    Yesterday also I haven't slept at night, But got good sleep at day, No urge to watch porn or masturbation but one thing I have noticed while seating with friends whenever someone talks about sex or hot girls I am getting erections for few seconds, Unbelievable but true fact, Few weeks before When I was watching porn I got no erection for extreme porn scene no erection zero , while I was doing masturbation then only for few seconds I was getting erection but when my cum spilled out then it again back to normal (or blow normal level), In last years of porn I have been addicted to masturbation to its full, I have noticed just today that I was watching porn or so called my favorite genre or my favorite scene or my favorite girl just to ejaculate, I was watching it for masturbation, in last years I have done lots of masturbation even I see now Marks on my penis, My penis is loosen a lot, I have literally destroyed myself, But every dark night there is a beautiful day ahead, I stopped doing idiotic things, I don't know why I just love to share my thoughts my emotions here, I am loving this moment when I am typing all my heart, I don't know about grammar, or spell mistake, I just write because It Feels good.

    I Love You All.
     
  17. The Pakistani Guy

    The Pakistani Guy New Member

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    DAY 15 ? I couldn't dream of getting there without mo for that matter. removing porn for me is easy but removing mo is hard. Going 15 days without it you must be feeling pretty good. What are the differences you're noticing btw ?
     
  18. weir

    weir Member

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    I think you just have read few pages..
    Going Great...Will write in details in few days
     
  19. weir

    weir Member

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    Got Married.
    So busy
    Soon I will update as I get time.
     
  20. weir

    weir Member

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    Day 57
    As You know I got married, Sex was totally different than what I was thought, Its totally different taste, My wife is in her home for few days, Today I am feeling lots of urges to watch porn but controlling myself...Lots of thing happened in last 15 to 20 days but I am glad none of it relate to Porn but only real life things..
     

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