I'm writing this around midnight, literally in the middle of the night. I just slept for a few hours, not a full night's sleep, more like a long nap. It seems I'm returning to my old sleep pattern, polyphasic sleep. Since I've stopped the klonopin, which is basically the same as booze and weed, and cut my main med in half, which was giving me horrible side effects and making me a zombie, I'm beginning to feel like a real human Again! So probably around noon today I'll crash and sleep around three hours and be fine. This was my old pattern when I used to function really well. So sex and porn, well, my day counter still says zero LOL. Long way to go there, I did M just the other day... But it's easier to stay sober when you feel well, and I'm feeling much better. Off to the pharmacy this afternoon to pick up new high blood pressure meds. New psychiatrist and new cardiologist. They are both Outstanding! I just want everything fixed so I can focus on my addiction! Everyday since I stopped porn it's been chaos! Chaos that's had mostly nothing to do with porn and sex addiction! And for the love of all that's holy I need it to stop snowing! I think it's been weeks now since I looked at porn. I've MO'd but I haven't even peeked at porn. I really need for things to settle down soon. I need that boredom I keep talking about. Sure, sitting here at midnight, it's calm, quiet, relaxed... But as soon as 9AM hits who knows what hell will break loose. I guess life is just chaotic... And you just don't PMO and keep plowing ahead. I have two SAA meetings I can make today, I'll probably just hit the morning meeting. Check in later.