Re: unleashing the real me Day 87 It's funny how I was always the first to stress the importance of abstaining from M completely during the reboot because M would lead to more craving and escalation. Now that I have M almost every day during the last week I am witnessing how my behaviour is escalting - I'm drawn to pics with girls in lingerie and occasional topless pics - and I'm rationalising about how it's not P, and how therefore it's alright if I just keep it brief and so on. Why is it that I absolutely believe in a concept - namely that M always leads to escalation - and end up still doing it at some point, and why is it that I'm then even a little surprised when I get triggers and urges after almost 3 months of abstaining from P? It's the power of the addiction and I am a recovering addict. I have made some progress, namely that I went from 3 to 6 PMO sessions a day to not watching P at all for almost 3 months, but now I have to be really careful to not relapse. I don't want all of this time and effort to be for nothing. I did 65 days of no M, and it wasn't much of a problem, and now it seems I can go for more than 2 days w/out M. This is ridiculous So, starting now I will not MO nor look at borderline content for 10 days, and I won't deviate. This seems like a reasonable goal right now, if I said I were not to ever MO again I just wouldn't believe myself and thus not hold myself accountable. Please wish me luck, I feel this is a critical point in my recovery.