Turned 26 on Friday. I have finally decided that it's just stupid to keep paying

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by germanshepherd07, Aug 17, 2014.

  1. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    for camwhores/porn. I have spent nearly 9,000 dollars on porn in just two years. I'm tired of it. My body is worn out from it. I'm tired of being clinically depressed from it, having to ask people for money while hiding my addiction, and going broke.

    I have been in deep thought on where should I go now I'm getting older. Porn is one of the issues. I don't want to head into my 30s still depending on porn to get my nuts off let alone being broke.

    Porn is just crazy fun we get off as teenagers but into our 20s? It robs us of our minds that should be used to find real women. I have decided just to fuck porn and camwhores. I do not need that as my support system.
  2. neale

    neale New Member

    9,000 is alot of money.

    I've also wasted lots of money on pornography over the years, but i don't know the exact figure, luckily i never discovered cam stuff, i also wasted money on escorts in the past, it's not something i' proud of but you know what? You can't change what has happened, so there is no point dwelling on it, so long as you learn your lessons that's the important thing.

    I feel stronger having lived through it and come out the other side more or less intact!
  3. Mr. Tony

    Mr. Tony Life is like a game of chess.

    Happy belated birthday germanshepherd!

    I was in the sam boat as you, paying for camsites. But the important thing is that we're doing something to stop our addictions.

    Best of luck!
  4. SheldonCooper

    SheldonCooper New Member

    $9000 is steal - compared to a divorce settling. j/k ;) :D

    Spending money on porn is a waste for sure. Never did that. But don't expect the real thing to be cheaper at all, add at least one zero at the end. You're the man, you're gonna pay everything. 8)
  5. over_it

    over_it Active Member

    $9000 is a lot. I have wasted only a small amount as most of it was free. But I still paid for it of course - as we know the real cost is not monetary.

    But you don't want financial troubles on top of everything else.
  6. Andress

    Andress New Member

    Why would anyone pay for porn when you can watch unlimited content and a lot of it in hd for free.
  7. Supporter

    Supporter Guest

    26 Bro

    Time to start a business
    Build some more muscles
    Learn some martial arts
    Find some cool hobbies or crafts like woodworking blacksmithing etc
  8. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    This. One of the reasons why I'm addicted to it and I'm in partial control of the show.

    Tonight is my second paycheck of the month. Is it okay to masturbate but without porn and cammies? I find that even when I fap to porn, it kills my appetite for cams.
  9. Mr. Tony

    Mr. Tony Life is like a game of chess.

    It depends. If I were you, I would wait at least 30 days before MOing. As long as you do it without fantasizing, you'll be okay.
  10. neale

    neale New Member

    Like your avatar
  11. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    Update: It's been a week since last Monday I paid for a cybersex session. So far, I have not relapsed likely due to my subconsciousness knowing I have to give up 130 dollars for my dog's appt this week but I think if that didn't exist, I undoubtedly would be beating the stick this morning with 100 dollars gone.

    I still need to work on giving up porn(I will get crap for what I'm going to say)but I had to use it the other day to get rid of temptation to pay for more cam sessions. I know this is not the way to go but I figured it was better to get that sexual urge out of the way before I caved in paying for a quickie anyway. Maybe I should associate MO with no porn and cams next time(inb4duhcaptainobviouslol)

  12. steve2006

    steve2006 No Ragrats

    Cant you just block the camsites with k9 and create a disposable email address so you wont be able to get the password back. People say that blockers are unnecessary but they do a great job in my opunion.
  13. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    I did last time but I just ended up uninstalling it. I was that desperate.
  14. steve2006

    steve2006 No Ragrats

    What operating system are you using k9 on? On mac its pretty indestructible i found and i consider myself to be pretty good around computers. I know on windows you can delete a driver and do it so its flawed.

    Considering how much you have spent on porn I would seriously consider going for the nuclear option and getting rid of your pc at home and only using internet in public places like libraries etc.
  15. NightsWatch

    NightsWatch Member

    Your health is more important than the $9000 so forget about that. What's important is that you re-invent yourself now. I imagine you have a decent job and have binged on porn quite a bit so it's affected your health in dramatic fashion. Start saving that money you were once spending on porn and go out and find some hobbies that don't cost anything but your precious time. Best of luck brother, I hope you stay on these forums and update us about your progress.
  16. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    So far nearing the two-week mark and I have not paid for porn or cams. I have never felt this good in two years.

    I'm also on track to having the most money in my bank account since March where I blew all of my 2,000 dollars I earned that month on porn and a laptop.

    NOTE: I'm not doing NoFap. I'm still masturbating but working on cutting porn out as I want to get rid of it since I'm turning older and using my time wiser on other things.
  17. Mr. Tony

    Mr. Tony Life is like a game of chess.

    Congratulations on the two weeks germanshepherd!

    Keep up the great work!
  18. leannfit

    leannfit New Member

    I never understood the appeal of girl on girls or cam girls
    I remember the `1st season of heroes TV show, a guy watched this cam girl all the time,..I didnt see the appeal, 8 yrs later, I still don't get it

    $9,000 can buy a lot of stuff, you must have some bankroll to spend that much money on entertainment
  19. germanshepherd07

    germanshepherd07 New Member

    LOL no. I would have so much money now if I didn't blew it all away.
  20. leannfit

    leannfit New Member

    I feel the same way when I look at my credit card bill about the daily expenditure of $0-$50 I spend on food.

    I have a conversation with my other fat friend about how much money we blow on junk food, how if we ever need money, we just spend a week or 2 not eating out and only eat what's in our kitchen,
    I am trying a new method to get me to stop eating junk food and that's if I get hungry, I go to the bank and take $30 and keep it in an envelope in my house, so whenever I get hungry, I do this
    currently I have an envelope of $270 of cash in my kitchen bulletin board
    that's a shit load of money to waste on food that you then have to either carry around as fat and burn off at the gym
    so basically, I am burning money by eating unhealthy, only instead of burning money, I get to carry the extra money as fat and suffer the embarrassment of being fat(girls don't like fat guys) and my MD doesnt approve of me being fat and my bank account prefers I not burn money

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