Hey guys First of all sorry for my grammar, english is not my native language. This is my first post after 2 years of absence probably. I come here in moment of solitude, my wife is away, visiting her parents. I am amazed that everything is the same it was 2, 3 years ago when I was active member. I was trying so hard to quit. I remember feeling miserable late at night, reseting relapse counters, writing journals, trying to hit 100 days mark, analysing every single aspect of one and only thing here PORN https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pornography . What a waste of time... What cured me is a gradual change in my daily routine. It was probably a moment when I started my internship, my first real job after college. I was forced to be more social. Then I remeber when I saw a girl that I liked constantly liking some retard bodybuilder guy gym instagram photos. It made me to start going to gym, I gained some muscles and started feeling better in my body. Yes I quit the gym but confidence stayed with me and I started seeking real relationship. I was rejected many times, few times I had a succes. And I didnt quit porn, I quit attempts to quit porn. I stopped visiting nofap forums, I gave up this whole thing. I started slowly to live in real life. I was out of my comfort zone, one step at the time. And that road of selfimprovement led me to amazing girl which is now my wife, a woman of my life. I guess I can say that I had a luck finding a person who saw real me (not the porn addict I thought I was). She was supportive when I told her about my porn "habbit", she didnt think its a big deal. I relaxed and soon after that our sex life became great and relationship bloomed. 2+ years later I have build strong CV, working for 2 top companies in my profession, I am married and expecting a baby boy, I quit respected managerial position in great company to start my own business... so many things happened. I just feel like I am living now the way I should all my life, I am in control, pursuing my dreams and enjoying in little things. I became confident men who is capable of achieving his dreams and creating my own destiny. As for the addiction, right now I dont believe it exist and never was. I stopped giving shit. I watch porn sometimes (when my wife has a period, not in a mood...) but guess want, the rest of menhood is doing the same thing. Its important to value real relationship and sex first. Porn is just an excuse to your other problems. More than 6 billion people on Earth, endless possibilities to meet exiting people, to see new places, to try new things... Only 1 life, start living it the way you should!