Saturday (yesterday) didn’t go so well. I did get up but never actually got out the house. Binge watched a series. I lay and fantasised on my couch a few times and my hand was on my dick for a few moments twice. I’m going to cut myself some slack and not chalk it up as a relapse. But I’ve got an asterisk next to my counter of 18* days clean. Basically it was a combination of some Major work stress, financial stress, future stress, nothing planned to do on the weekend, and most friends being away. I’m still on a huge low. But I’ve got a plan, I know something I can do to move forward for the work stress - I need to at least get my cv in gear. Reading stories here helped me avoid a full relapse. I’ve made some big changes to my lifestyle the last few months I must keep up those habits (eg reading, no watching youtube, no watching of online news - I subscribed to a print newspaper which gets delivered much better for me! , going to bed earlier, getting up earlier, …) but those have been skipping the last two weeks. Will try to stem the holes in the dam.