Trying to beat it

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by wintersturme, Jun 21, 2021.

  1. wintersturme

    wintersturme Member

    Three weeks without PMO or MO. My previous record was 2 weeks. I'm really happy about this. Thanks for the support.
     
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  2. Mozenjo

    Mozenjo Well-Known Member

    This is fantastic! Keep up the good work, wintersturme!
    By the way, Beethoven has to be my favorite composer. Remember Schroeder from the Peanuts comics? He knew.
     
  3. wintersturme

    wintersturme Member

    Nearly slipped up today. Looked for about half an hour at porn. However, I did come to my senses and shut the computer down. So no PMO. But it was extremely tantalizing. Did MO later (first time since 3 weeks). However I didn't fantasize nor try to recall images or scenarios from pron I used to watch.
     
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  4. Saville

    Saville Well-Known Member

    Pulling yourself back from the edge shows strength. Well done!
     
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  5. Mozenjo

    Mozenjo Well-Known Member

    Yes, it's better to slip than to fall. Good for you for stopping before spending any more time on it. But you know how slippery this slope is. Be on guard, man. The beast wants you to forget how bad it feels to relapse. Notch a good clean rest of your day and show the beast who's boss. Rooting for you, wintersturme!!!
     
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  6. wintersturme

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    Thanks Saville and Mozenjo. Difficult morning indeed. This afternoon I was out of the house. And tomorow I will be busy as I will be attending a workshop, so no temptation there. I hope this will allow me to beat the beast for the coming days.
     
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  7. wintersturme

    wintersturme Member

    Haven't been around for quite a few days. HAd a rather busy schedule so wasn't able to comment or write a lot. Sunday I reached the 4 weeks barrier. However as I wrote last week things were difficult and they remain difficult. I haven't watched any porn but did MO quite a few times the last week. I did spend some time reading erotic stories so I feel as if I'm on the verge to slipping back to old habits. The triggers are the same as always: stress, fatigue and too much alchohom consumption over the weekend. I really have to deal with this. This week will again be busy (spending 3 days at a workshop) which is good (not much room to think about P). I hope this rebuild my willpower.

    While reading erotic stories is not the same as porn watching I do feel that it is problematic in the sense that if feel drawn to read more (so the addictive side seems to be present).
     
  8. wintersturme

    wintersturme Member

    I was on a slippery slope since being without PMO for three weeks. Yesterday I fell down in porn hole again. Frustrating and mad at myself.

    I hope I'm a bit wiser to start a new streak which will hopefully last longer.
     
  9. Rudolf Geyse

    Rudolf Geyse Well-Known Member

    Love what you said about learning from it. I just started a new streak myself. Let's do it together. Watch out for the chaser effect, be prepared for some follow-up urges after spending time on PMO again. Remember it's not worth it and the more distance you get from this thing the better. All the best guy, you can do it!
     
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  10. wintersturme

    wintersturme Member

    Thanks for the reply Rudolf. I feel the chaser effect racing through my mind and body. All the best for you too. We can do this.
     

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