True Change's Journey to The Land Where The Hand Is Banned

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  1. True Change

    True Change Active Member

    Tuesday 7th June 2022
    I didn't look at pornography today.

    I stayed strict today. I did some push ups before getting out of bed in the morning. I didn't look at any social media today. I feel that hard mode is giving me more social confidence and energy but that might be a placebo. I had a very pleasant ten minute chat with a personal trainer at the weight lifting class tonight.
     
  2. Saville

    Saville Well-Known Member

    Great work!
     
  3. True Change

    True Change Active Member

    Wednesday 8th June 2022
    I didn't look at pornography today.

    I did some push ups before I got out bed this morning. I meditated this morning and di my morning routine. I went to boxing training this evening and took a cold shower after I got home. I didn't have any cravings today. i didn't look at social media today or see any images of women.

    I think I am on day 108 without looking at porn and on day 9 since I last masturbated.

    Thursday 9th June 2022
    I didn't look at pornography today.

    This morning I took a four minute colds shower. I played golf with my father this afternoon. In the evening I had dinner with my parents. I didn't go online all day.

    Friday 10th June 2022
    I didn't look at pornography today.

    I fasted until eleven thirty this morning. I took a five minute cold shower before going out. I worked on a client job all afternoon. In the evening I did some reading and I continued working on the client job. I took a quick look at a girl's tiktok page while I was bored online at the library and had no plan for what I needed to do online.

    Other than that I'm still in one hundred percent t hard mode. I am looking forward to being offline all weekend and feeling stronger every day.
     
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    True Change Active Member

    Saturday 11th June 2022
    I didn't look at pornography today.

    I woke up early this morning to finish a job for a client. I went to the library as soon as it opened to and worked on it all morning. in the afternoon I did some reading and took a nap. I had steak and eggs at lunch time and steak and eggs again for dinner.

    I was triggered by a email in notification in my inbox from a dating site. I logged in, had a look at the notifications and deleted the account. It's amazing how many of these prompts come out of nowhere in the modern world. I'm not complaining, it's just what we have to mange in the modern world. You can be going along on a clean nofap streak and boom! Out of nowhere comes an image or. notification to tempt you. You know you are on the path to recovery when you can deal look the image in the eye, tell it has no power to tempt you any more and carry on with your life.

    Sunday 12th June 2022
    I didn't look a pornography today.

    I woke up with a higher than usual libido this morning. But I did just did some push ups and got up out of bed. Today I did some reading and wrote in my journal and did some laundry. I took my parents' dog for a walk. For some reason I had some fantasies when I was meditating, thinking about exes. I returned to my breathing and shifted my focus.
     
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    True Change Active Member

    Monday June 13th 2022
    I didn't look at pornography today.

    I took a five minute cold shower at lunchtime and a four minute colds shower after boxing training in the evening. In the afternoon I took some notes on a book I read and then I went online to access my online banking and upload m my journal to this forum. I watched some YouTube videos today but they were all Q&A sessions with authors I like - I stayed away from any images of attractive women.

    In three days I will go to work a summer job as a at university for eight to ten weeks. I am really looking forward to seeing what effect over 120 days of no porn has on my mood, my energy and how I relate to others. I will be around more real women too so it might help me rewire to just be in physical proximity to real women.
     
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