Hey everyone, This is my journal page. It's time to quit porn or die tryin'. Why I'm here: I read in 'Wack' by Noah Church that you 'need to give to others during your reboot" so I'm here to encourage guys, share lessons from my experiences and help wherever I can. My story: I'm going to try and condense my story and keep it relevant. 1. Innocent & Ignorant Many people think porn addicts suffered trauma or sexual abuse during childhood. That wasn't true for me. I grew up in the country, on farm, a bit sheltered but happy and safe. My parents are still together. My older sister is happily married with children. What happened with me was my natural curiosity met with easy access and lead me down the wrong path. It started in the late 1990's as a teenager with men's magazines such as Maxim. I also saw glimpses of nudity on late-night TV channels. Amazingly, I never touched myself and had my first sexual encounter at nineteen in college. 2. Addicted & Ignorant 2002-2012 Bored one night (age 21) in my room at college, I decided to see what this masturbation stuff was all about. I downloaded a full-length movies from a torrent site and jerked off for the first time. That was the start of the addiction. This habit escalated to the point where I was masturbating to porn 3-4 times per day. I was jerking myself to exhaustion, eating junk food and staying up late. Over the next few years I had some girlfriends, some hookups and 5 episodes of ED. In 2012, after trying to have sex on two different occasions with a lawyer I was dating, I had severe ED and realized something was wrong. So I turned to the internet and found the whole nofap/anti-porn movement. 3. 2013-2019 Addicted & Aware Now I knew I had a problem and over the next few years I had one streak of 57 days, another of 46 days and multiple 20-30 day streaks. I got into online dating and hookups which dampened the addiction a bit but I now realize I was a heroin addict turning to opium. 4. 2019 - 2021 Breaking through to the light Around 2 years ago I decided to stop trying to white knuckle my way out of this addiction using brute force. I educated myself - I read 'Your Brain on Porn' by Gary Wilson, 'Wack' by Noah Church, 'Man Interrupted' by Phillip Zimbardo, 'Digital Minimalism' by Cal Newport and a load of other books. I sold my smartphone and bought a Nokia. I went into full-on self-improvement mode: daily cold showers, meditation classes twice per week, Brazilian Jiu Jitsu 3 times per week, Morning Pages every morning, bodyweight exercises every day, 2-hour daily walks in nature, listening to audio books, etc. Since January 2021 I've found it easier to to string together 20-25 day streaks. I feel I'm crawling my way to freedom. I'm not totally free yet but I'm not the serious addict I used to be. That's where I am today. My aims: I want to keep up my journal to be accountable. I don't want to fight this alone any more. There's no need to when there are so many guys struggling with the same problem.