@Libertad , @Mozenjo , @Gil79 ...thank you, my brothers! I was really close to caving and needed to give myself a verbal cold shower. The "take no prisoners" approach is what has always worked for me. It's not for everyone, but I have to see PMO in black and white terms. It's not just for my dick's sake, either, but for my manhood. As a soon-to-be retiree I don't have the years in front of me to piss away any more time. You're not hijacking my journal. I love the conversation. Lib, what you've done over the past year has been heroic. You went from a seemingly hopeless case to a leader on this forum. It takes about two years to really settle down the mind. At the moment, you are probably fearful of getting into a relationship. Also, you've become used to living as a bachelor and there is a certain comfort in that. However, men and women need to circulate around each other because it makes us feel whole. Even going to the library and smiling at the librarian gives our dick purpose. These small encounters build a base. When I am feeling low I know a walk is the best thing for me. However, when I'm feeling low a walk is the last thing I want to do; I'd rather have a cup of coffee and eat. But, I usually make the effort and force myself out the door. It's not a lot of effort, but enough to give me some momentum. It takes effort and vigilance to stay off of P...you've proven you've got that in spades. It also takes effort to change our habits. I remember watching a baseball game and the commentator said "striking out is the worst possible outcome, because nothing happens and nothing can happen." If the batter makes contact then anything is possible. Allowing ourselves to be more social is "making contact."