I had a dream last night where my wife was chiding me to "not ruin her fun." She was with an old friend and we were all going to some kind of musical event. I got angry and told I wasn't going to go and I certainly wasn't going to be treated in a such a rude way by her. She tried half-heartedly to convince to go, but I felt I had to stand up to her. There was a lot more to the dream, but it was clear I was standing up to the matriarchal spirit. That may sound wacky and wrong, especially in today's times when we must all obey the feminist call, but since coming to this site it is an ever present thought of mine. We are born through a woman's loins and this connection to the mother can not be discounted. The matriarchal spirit is devastating to both men and women. We try to grow up, to become self-actualized, but the matriarch wants to continually pull us back, to keep us close to her vagina so that she is always in control. We watch P because this is obedience to the siren call of the great mother. Women enter into P and prostitution for the same reason. These are extreme positions, I know, but there are billions who hover not far them. We live in a rape culture, we are told, which makes both men and women feel afraid. Fear is at the root of the matriarch, because it is there how control is gained. This is why breaking free of P is so hard and then when we do it we find other distractions and addictions to take its place. So long as we are numbing ourselves with something or other then we are in the grips of the Great Mom. I'm feeling decent. Yesterday I went to the liquor with the wifey as she wanted to buy some wine. I always have loved the liquor store, because I love booze. In past years I've spent $400 a month on alcohol. Fuck, that's a lot of money! Partly that's because I have expensive taste, but still, that's nuts! Hope everyone has an awesome day!