I realize I need to document more. There is a lot jumbled in my head and I really want to do this. I want to abandon the habits of exploiting women visually, looking at adult content, & acting out. Here is a start. 09.03.19 I'm curious which part of me fails to realize that I hate the short & long term effects of PMO. Which part of my mind forgets that I am looking at a screen? Let's get off this topic for a moment. But forreal, how do I forget how much pain the last PMO session has given me? How do I forget so quickly? I know what the outcome will be. I've done it several times for hundreds of days. It does not bring relief or relaxation, but the opposite - anxiety and frustration.