Time's running out

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by tarconi_union, May 6, 2021.

  1. tarconi_union

    tarconi_union Member

    Came to porn once again. Disappointing.
     
  2. tarconi_union

    tarconi_union Member

    Relapsed again. Didn't fap. Might have surfed porn for 40-50 minutes.
     
  3. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Don't get stuck in two/three day cycle. Did you do something different since your month long clean spell?
     
  4. tarconi_union

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    No. I had some physical health problem. Which seemed to have strengthened resolve to quit porn. Increased sexual arousal with time overrode my resolve.
     
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  5. tarconi_union

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    Relapsed after day 4.
     
  6. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Increased sexual arousal sounds like your body was healing. If you aren't abstaining from masturbation, you could do it in moderation without porn to use up that energy?
     
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  7. tarconi_union

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    Masturbation has set off chaser effect before. Going to start exercising.
     
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  9. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Did you manage to do some exercise?
     
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  10. tarconi_union

    tarconi_union Member

    No. Not ones I wanted.
     
  11. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    How's it going? I've found exercise helps me feel more positive and less likely to relapse. Hard at this time of year though, I haven't managed to jog this week as planned.
     
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  12. tarconi_union

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    Can't say. Just relapsed. Watched porn for an hour. Didn't wanna fap.
     
  13. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Sounds like if you focus on reducing the usage time and increasing gaps between using it might help?
     
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  14. tarconi_union

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    Hmm..Maybe I have to taper off. And increase gaps over time.
     
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  15. tarconi_union

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    Relapsed. Surfed porn several hours. Couldn't make myself fap. It would have knock me badly for few weeks. :confused:
     
  16. tarconi_union

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    Resetting tracker once again. Feeling ashamed. Just chasing highs. Edging.
     
  17. positivef

    positivef Active Member

    Feeling ashamed won't help, just set you back. Get back on the horse and look into why you are acting out. Have you identified what triggers you to use?
     
  18. tarconi_union

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    I have relapsed. Played a porn RPG for 2 or 3 hours. It started yesterday. Before I had reset tracker had viewed this game. Having nothing to do made me aware of it and I slipped. Didn't even fap.

    Triggers are isolation, boredom and surfing net. Having to stop going online if there is no reason to. Have to make it goal oriented. And not wander.
     
  19. tarconi_union

    tarconi_union Member

    Day 10

    Feeling slow and dull today. I just want to be recovered from this shit. Sadly it's not only problem in my life. Psychosis and other mental health problems are still there. They are here to stay.
     
  20. tarconi_union

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    Day 11

    I am experiencing physical withdrawals. But can't figure out if it's due to having stopped medicine or porn or both.
    People around me want to take more responsibility at work I am not capable of. Which is exacerbating anxiety further.
    At this stage I can't afford relapse.

    I can't speak with anyone else about porn issues.
     

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