Thanks @Bilbo Baggins for your input. You're absolutely right, we can't wait until we're healed to feel better. We should be taking action now. Also thanks to @positivef and @realness I appreciate the ongoing support. Sorry I haven't been posting much lately. I've had a terrible few days and returned to old habits. At this point, I'm not even sure what's been driving the behaviour. I had a couple of breakthroughs with work and should be happy, but it's almost like I'm punishing myself. I should be open and allowing for positive things to happen, but instead I'm self sabotaging. I need a couple of days to escape from this mental prison and get back to recovery.