I spent a weekend having great food & drink in a hotel, surrounded by people whose company I enjoy. I always feel really low the day after returning from a holiday/vacation. Because it's over....and it means I'm returning to normal life. In the past, I would have turned to porn to cope with days like this. But today has been different - I got through it in a more mature fashion. Allowed myself to feel low, to accept it, I didn't try to escape. And crucially, I have continued to take positive actions. Gardening, going for a run, keeping the house tidy, even small acts of self care such as a haircut/shaving - it all makes a difference. The wife is going out tomorrow evening so I'll be home alone for a few hours. I will plan ahead to ensure I deal with the alone time in a healthy way.