I've been inactive on the forum lately and it's partly due to the fact I recently started a new job. By returning to full time employment it feels like I've lost my freedom. I've surrendered a career I was passionate about to do a 'boring' office job. But the boring office job is the practical choice at this stage in my life so I need to come to terms with it. Many of us don't get to do our dream jobs and fulfil our ambitions, that's the reality. Lately, recovery has taken a back seat and I've been close to relapse - based on Regnaw's video above I'd say I've been in the 'mental relapse' phase for a few days now. Logging on here today has been useful and thanks for all your contributions. I recognise that I need to post more often as journalling was helping me to process my thoughts and stay on track.