@forlorn Statistically and historically, while your vote "matters" it likely won't make a "difference" and I needed to learn how those two didn't mean the same thing before I could stop pontificating my political views to others. I haven't had a real political debate in nearly 5 years and it feels great. When you let go of your hard and fast beliefs a little, you have room to hold onto more important things. If you're not seeing a therapist right now, I'd say to privately write about the trauma. Write about what happened, how it made you feel then, how you feel now, what should have happened to the younger you and what effect it did have on today's you. There are no rules. Blame people, swear, be irrational. Get it out on paper and then burn it. Watch that trauma go up in smoke and know you've let it go. And I know this is your journal, but I just wanted to mention that my second book is coming out tomorrow and I'll be doing a Reddit AMA at Noon EST if anybody wants to stop by.