Time is fleeting, life is passing, and I'm stuck and stranded on a lonely Island

@auzzie_mikey you always freak me out to believe that I will also have to be on them for the rest of my life.

 

Yes I can atleast function after starting them. But when I hear life long thing it demotivates me and put me into anxeity

 

Hi Mikey, is that a self-prognosis you have made with the anti-depressants or have you been told this by a medical professional? Only a relative few people with mental health problems will be on them for the rest of their life and that is usually those who just have a natural imbalance of brain chemicals responsible for the the issue. In the majority of cases, it is quite an unhealthy thing to be dependent on anti depressants in the long term.

Staying off porn is great, carry on doing that, but abstaining from sex for the rest of your life when you are a young guy is quite extreme. Why are you convinced that sex is bad for you? I can share from experience of a few years of recovery that long term celibacy has its problems and creates sexual repression.

 

For all my genuine bros and brothers, Day 431 for me. That is day 431 of no O for me. I posted in the main thread "Guys, honestly this world has so many guys are beta and low testosterone because they give into their urges and give into the worship of women. Gotta stay strong and not give into these women. I am currently day 424 of no and plan to never O in my life. I got a blood test done and my testosterone levels are 33.2. The doctor asked if I take steroids, I said no and just chuckled internally thinking it's all due to no fap. Here's my 2 cents. Never give into any O and then see what king you will become."

that is legit the strongest advice I would give to men in the western world. In Australia, where I live, women think they are fucking gods gift to mankind because they wear makeup and expect everything to get just because they are women. You know what? Fuck them!

I walk around with heavy testostorone and just because I dont stare at these women, they walk aggressively around me, when i just ignore them. It just shows how fucking hungry these women are for attention and for a male's semen. HAHAHAHAHAHA WOMEN ARE FUCKED!!!!

 

For anyone interested see excerpts below from the "The Bliss of the Celibate":

Because the male has been sunk in thralldom to sex, he is becoming sunk in thralldom to the female. Because he has become sunk in thralldom to the female and no longer occupies his natural high station as a human being, modern females have actually come to believe themselves superior to men in all sorts of ways, and act as if it were so. In view of the testimony of history and scripture, we have embarked upon very strange times. Here I will say some things that offend some female egos.


Western women now go so far as to speak of themselves as "goddesses." Men are too decent to call themselves "gods." If they did, they would be rightly censured. She easily devalues the concept of the Goddess for the sake of personal self aggrandizement.

Themes in the media and drama are popular in which women excoriate men, mock men, and even physically attack men. The bizarre notion is developing that physical differences between men and women are negligible or even non-existent. Violent and aggressive female characters are presented repeatedly in media as having physical prowess over men, beating them up, killing them, and making mayhem everywhere. In our military the warrior ranks are becoming diluted by the weaker female. It has even become taboo in our military to acknowledge the obvious facts of a woman's generally weaker physique and less intrepid and enduring psychological nature.


Because the male now fawns over her body, she now regards her body as supremely important, having a supernatural hold and power over him


Let me state it in other ways:

When the male, for a long time, worships the female form, the female will necessarily come to worship her own form.

When the female form long has power over men, the female will come to have power over men.

When the male treats the female as his god, the female will ultimately regard herself as "goddess."


Whenever men become ignorant and immoral, woman will automatically attain dominance over them and obtain a superior position. Because the male has long been sunk in a state of ignorance and depravity, woman now takes social and cultural precedence over him. This is a natural law; a direct outcome of male ignorance.

 

I appreciate your efforts to not watch porn and orgasm. And lower your gaze to women. However god has created using pairs. Partners to each other. Man capable of doing physical tasks. Women capable of handling emotional tasks like carrying a child in a womb which men can never. As far as you describe women they might have gained that character over the time when she was objectified and it became normal for her to look for body appreciating than anything else. Mikey if you are really healthy whatever your religion might be look for a pious women and get married. It will further strengthen your NO pmo and help you lower your gaze. You can even have children which can look after you when you become old. I am always living in the anxeity that can I have succesful intimacy and father a child as years of Pmo might have had some impact on my sexual health. If you really have become so healthy than I advise do not waste time and get married to a women who doesn't feel goddess about herself. Ask your parents to look for a decent humble girl who can be faithful and respect you as a provider of food clothing. I might sound very patriarchal towards women. But at the same time you can thank her for looking after your home and parents. Man you are healthy I really wish I was in your place and I would have requested my parents to help me get married. But this is not the ideal condition. I am weak. On anti depressants. I am so doubtful as to whether I can have intimacy or not. I get tired with very less physical activity. I really look up to you for not engaging in premarital intimacy. Search for a who's not so rich and when you help her get her needs fulfilled you will feel an accomplished that you have done something good as sad by God. Yes I know for you orgasms tend to make you very upset mentally but you can reach out to a therapist so that you can get some good help regarding that issue. Infact you can even speak to your potential wife about this let her know and who knows she might appreciated your truthfulness.

 

One more question how much was your Testosterone before?

Pls mention with units.

 

Well I don't exactly how much it was before. But when I used to masturbate and pmo before in 2015 my testosterone Level was 22 nmol/L

 

No no it's not my subconscious mind. I realise and see it in real life. I don't know whether it's im so good looking. I think it's more the fact that because I haven't O'ed in 479 days my superpowers and presence is supernatural. Like aura and alpha levels are out of this world. And women can sense that when they see men. I think they try to get the attention from me because it validates them. I have seen women go crazy over getting attention. No one ever believes me and thinks I am bullshitting or imagining things or people think im making up things to boost my ego. But it's seriously a botheration for me.

Anyone I don't give a fuck and don't need to please anyone. I know I just hate the sight of women and them staring at me. As long as I know what works for me.. I don't care about what anyone else says. No one else can understand anothers perspective. But it gives me the shits to no end literally when women try to seduce me n stare at me relentlessly. I was standing at a counter in supermarket with my sunglasses on... And then a women purposely bumps into me. I got fired up there and abused the fuck out of her.. Her husband came and staunched me.. The police was about be called. I really will do anything and not ever fucking give in to women. On my dying deathbed I won't surrender to any women.

 

If that is so then I think you must really find a women and get married to her. when I say so I am talking about women who really do not bother to get attention. You might very well protect yourself from these women at the same time as you will have to be loyal to your wife. A serious suggestion Mikey.

 

I swear as bad as women want their attention is as bad as I won't give it to them. I see my life for the sole purpose of serving the lord and the jesus christ. Not worship of this women who think they are entitled princesses. I have blocked all women on my phone who try to contact me, unfriended all women from my Facebook.

When someone is under water, as bad they want to breathe is bad as I won't give these women my attention. I see women as succubi.

 

Good im working from home due to all the corona virus. It means I don't have to meet any women at work and no semen or seduction release. Complete semen retention 100% which makes me happy!!!

 

I've just realised in life it's best to keep quiet about my extreme views about women. Best not to say it anywhere. Whatever keeps me happy just be happy with myself.

 

That's fine Mikey.

Your views are perfectly fine. Except for the fact that they are not true for one women. That is your wife. Just wife and nothing else.

 

I've realised that complete O is the way of life for me. I gotta realise not to ever O in my life. Right now it's 11pm at night and I can feel maybe excessive semen.. But due to antidepressants sexual urges are not the highest. Gotta stay in control of myself

 

Ive realised that not Oing keeps my body in its strongest state mentally and both physically. So why to ever O?

 

I see on reddit that this man on semen retention says that he can serve women this n that bullshit hahahaha.. I just think I'm the most alive n happiest out of all.. Being happy and away from all these women. Fuck em hahahahaha

 

Pythagoras replied to a person saying he has sex "when you want to lose all your strength to a woman." the last samurai prided himself on avoiding women completely.

Another famous person said that women are the biggest thief of this energy. I'll never even surrender on my dying day. Fuarkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

 

Day 444

For me this corona virus time is perfect. I can keep quiet. I can ensure I solidify not Oing and not getting sexual at all.

I hope this corona virus passes though cause it's starting to get wild around the world.

 

I can say thank God I am away from women. There's nothing more which shits me in this world other than women and they think they are entitled to everything. Go fuck yourself hahahahahaha