Hi! I‘m about 40 years old and I’m addicted to pornographic material from the internet for about 14 years. Already 8 years ago I developed ED, 6 years ago I stopped to sleep with my former girlfriend. At this time I did not try conscious to get rid of that “bad habit” [at this time I did not knew anything about the connection between watching porn and ED – at this time I did not conscious knew, that I had developed ED. I blamed my lost “sexual appetite” on a stressful job-situation, on the “dynamic” between me and my girlfriend and even on her appereance. I was SUCH an idiot!] Two years later she spitted up with me. From this moment on [4 years ago!] I tried conscious to get rid of my addiction. That’s my story in a short version. But if I view at my development from my childhood on, I have to recognize that the whole thing is much more worse and essentially I always had a very bad approach to sexuality. Because of that I will publish my whole story at the next days. I don’t think that my whole story will bore you. About one year ago I found www.yourbrainonporn.com and I have read many of your storys. This empowered me very much! I had a good run last autumn – but failed in winter, got “lost” in spring and started new trials in summer. So here I am! I think that every man writes down his story at first for himself ad in a second line for others. Every reader can find many things in other storys, which would help him – even if every destiny is one of a kind. Writing down my story is a big help for me, to reflect my addiction. Writing down is a big help for me too, to realize my big sobriety of this attempt to me. At the first day of my new attempt I started to write down my story. Now more than 14 days are gone. As I mentioned, I’m not a “newbie”, but more than often I failed after 2 weeks. Because of that it makes just sense, to report to you, if this 2 weeks are gone. Now I will step to times of sobriety, which are more worth to me. I rarely hit the 40-days mark and I never trespassed the 45-days mark. But I have a different feeling to this new attempt. I’m just bound to my own decision to hit the 90-days mark. The last attempts were too much bound on expecting real sex with girls. Now the real girls are there, but in a very “friendly way”. Not the “ let’s just be friends” type and not the “c’mon guy, what’s up to you” type – and I worked for this! Everything with them is quite ok – but I can’t effort another relapse Ok, at first I say hello to you... Next days I will post about… my actual feelings and my – I hope so – progress. Publish some “chapters” of my career as an addict. Good luck!