"The 'lost my libido' part of the title of my writings here is still valid. There is still not much feeling in my cock. Sometimes when in bed with Michelle I don't even feel I have a hard-on. I have to check. Kinda feels ridiculous to have to check if I have a hard on or not... I still call that flatline. It does not surprise me the amount of pulling I have done but it is frustrating. I am longing to feel that roar of sexual energy through my being, in a healthy way. And it still feels far away." I don't like to compare my healing to others here because I don't know their history of porn abuse, I freely admit that I was one of the worst PMO abusers around -- and thus my reboot is a long one. I'm at peace with that. And, I still struggle with DE and some sensation loss. But, I honestly don't get frustrated anymore because I still see signs of progress all the time. Healing is just a matter of time, have faith in the process and your body and mind's capability for change. Many of of us unwiring decades of sexuality, that doesn't happen over night. Your body will heal in it's own time. But it will heal.